Suicide

April 17, 2025

Species: Human
Birthplace: Tian
Birthdate: 386 IE
Affiliation: Compact Resistance
Call Sign: “Suicide”
Real Name: Cui Yun

Overview

Known by her call sign Suicide, Cui Yun is a former Compact Navy pilot and a respected resistance leader on Amargosa. She operates under her call sign throughout the conflict, a name earned through years of executing high-risk missions. Suicide brings both strategic discipline and emotional gravity to the resistance, mentoring younger fighters while carrying the weight of profound personal losses.

Background

Originally from Tian, Suicide’s path to military service began in grief. Her husband was killed in the Polygamy Wars, prompting her to join the Compact Navy. During her service, she endured a second tragedy when her wife was killed in a terrorist bombing on Aphrodite, an event that deepened her emotional reserve and hardened her resolve.

She was born Cui Yun in 386 IE during a rainstorm in the Tianese capital of Shandug, a tiny infant barely over two kilos. Her birth was a moment of personal crisis for her father, Cui Jiao-long, a traditionalist and a military officer who feared his daughter’s small size made her weak. Her mother, Cui Ya, fiercely defended her and insisted they raise Yun to be Tianese rather than cling to outdated Earth-born ideals. It was Ya who chose the name Yun, meaning “cloud” in Mandarin, calling her a dream come true. Her father eventually warmed to her, recognizing her strength when the newborn seized his finger and quieted instantly.

As a child, Yun showed an early talent for drawing and an aversion to the militarism imposed by some of her teachers. A traumatic experience with an overbearing gym instructor who treated martial arts like boot camp ended with Yun straining her knee—and with her mother threatening divorce if her father did not support their daughter. That confrontation marked a shift in her family dynamic. Her father, humbled, stood up for Yun publicly, even bringing his new wingmate—a formidable woman named Eileen—to confront the school. It was the first sign that Yun would be raised not to conform, but to endure and resist. The support she received in that moment likely planted the seeds of resilience she would need later in life.

Yun met Akrad Izumi at the age of fourteen after a schoolyard fight left them both in the nurse’s office—him with bruised ribs, her with a black eye. When he stood up to a group of boys ganging up on her, it marked the start of a deep and enduring connection. Akrad’s easy charm and cultural curiosity disarmed her, and despite her father’s harsh demeanor, Yun was grinning by the time they parted ways that day. It was the first spark of something stronger than friendship, a moment of kindness that began defining how she saw strength—not in conformity, but in defiance and care. Her father’s reaction surprised her: instead of reprimanding her, he pulled her into an embrace and told her he was proud. That moment of approval reinforced her budding sense of self-worth and began to reconcile the military discipline of her upbringing with the compassion she found in Akrad.

Relationship with Akrad and Beginning of Flight Career

In 408 IE, at age 22, she was painting in a public park when she was reunited with Akrad Izumi, now an ensign aboard the CNV Hancock. Their reunion sparked a deep emotional connection. Akrad’s visit became a turning point; within three years, she had finished her education and entered civilian flight training. In 411 IE, as she transitioned into a career as a licensed civilian pilot. Akrad proposed aboard a training shuttle orbiting Tian. Yun accepted, stipulating that their first act as an engaged couple be deeply intimate. They made love for the first time in microgravity, sealing a bond rooted in trust, affection, and shared transformation. That moment, quiet and weightless, remained with her long after Akrad’s death and helped form the emotional core beneath the legend of Suicide.

In 413 IE, while still a civilian pilot known only as Cui Yun—or “Little Wing” to Akrad Izumi—she took a freight run through the Invictus Belt that would redefine her. Believing pirate activity in the region was exaggerated, she instead found herself facing a jury-rigged attack vessel latching onto her hull with an inflatable boarding collar. With no military training, Yun responded with brutal creativity: she vented her ship’s atmosphere and blew out her own cockpit window, ejecting the pirates and herself into thirty seconds of hard vacuum before emergency systems sealed the breach. She later joked to Eric Yuwono, “If it ever happens to you, you will shit your pants.” The Navy ultimately retrieved her and salvaged the vessel, and while she remained a civilian, word spread of the painter pilot who survived vacuum and pirates in the same breath. She wasn’t called “Suicide” yet—but the legend had begun.

By 415 IE, Yun had married Akrad and adopted his surname, becoming Yun Izumi. She was still flying as a civilian but beginning to edge closer to the world of military operations, thanks to her husband’s influence and her own growing reputation. That year marked a hopeful milestone: she discovered she was pregnant, her nanite swarm confirming it early one morning after a wave of unexpected nausea. Overjoyed, she woke Akrad with the news in the most intimate way possible. Their shared joy underscored how deeply entwined their lives had become—not just as lovers or partners, but as a family in the making.

In 416 IE, Yun Izumi’s world collapsed in a single day. Recovering from emergency surgery at Saripur Hospital on Tian, she learned she had lost her unborn daughter—an event she insisted on telling her husband, Akrad, personally. But that chance never came. Captain Eileen Burke and Flight Commander Flarr of the CNS Hancock arrived instead, delivering the news that Akrad had been killed in action. Yun, still adjusting to married life and her new identity as “Izumi,” was left devastated—stripped of her future as a mother and wife in the span of hours. The loss hollowed her, but also set her on the path to becoming the fearless pilot the Navy would one day nickname “Suicide.”

Navy Career and Polygamy Wars

Still reeling from the loss of her husband and unborn child, Yun Izumi marched into a naval recruiting station on Tian in 416 IE, determined to reclaim purpose through service. The recruiter, skeptical of her motivations and unimpressed with her civilian flight record, warned her she lacked the background for military-grade craft. Yun snapped back that she’d once blown out her own cockpit window to kill a pirate, surviving thirty seconds of hard vacuum—a feat few Navy pilots could match. She drove the point home by naming her late husband: Lieutenant Commander Akrad Izumi, the Hancock’s lead Interceptor pilot. The moment shifted when the recruiter received instructions from above—likely prompted by someone who knew exactly who she was—and admitted her on the spot. Though she signed in as Cui, not Izumi, she walked out not as a grieving widow but as a future legend, driven by loss and fire the Navy had not expected.

In 418 IE, Lieutenant Cui Yun flew a rescue mission during the Polygamy Wars, piloting a Falcon shuttle packed with freed coerced wives from Goshen’s insurgent compounds. With her ship damaged and enemy fighters in pursuit, she had no choice but to bleed speed fast—and did so by deliberately clipping three buildings on her descent. Each structure housed enemy emplacements. Two were destroyed outright, and the third had its defenses disabled by the impact. The maneuver not only saved the evacuees but disrupted the local rebel command center. Though she landed safely and without loss of life among her passengers, the local air commander overrode her protest and changed her call sign from “Little Wing” to “Suicide.” At the time, Yun hated the name, seeing it as a flippant badge for a reckless stunt. But the name stuck, spreading throughout the Navy and beyond, marking her forever as the pilot who turned a doomed mission into a victory using sheer nerve, precision, and just enough insanity.

Later that same year, Cui Yun flew her first Interceptor combat sortie in support of a ground offensive in New Salt Lake Province. When her squadron was pinned by a hidden artillery nest that had already taken out multiple craft and threatened the entire operation, Yun flew directly into the line of fire. With her ship already damaged, she pitched into a full attack dive, guided her failing Interceptor into the heart of the nest, and ejected milliseconds before impact. The resulting explosion obliterated the emplacements. She hit the water hard and was fished out of a lagoon by rescue forces—only to find herself facing Lieutenant Commander Quentin Austin, call sign “Reaper.” Rather than reprimand her, Reaper simply grinned and said, “So you’re the real Suicide.” It was the first time she heard the call sign spoken with admiration rather than derision. Though she never fully embraced the name, she stopped correcting people after that moment.

By 419 IE, Yun had firmly established herself as one of the Navy’s most daring and unorthodox shuttle pilots, flying under the command of Reaper aboard the CNV Hancock. During a pivotal mission over New Kirtland, Goshen, Suicide was ordered to hold back while a kinetic strike was prepped to eliminate a fortified enemy position. Learning that a platoon of Marines was still trapped—including a young and visibly terrified Lucius Kray—she instead dumped her Falcon’s orbital fuel and threaded the shuttle through treetop cover, evading artillery fire to extract the squad before the strike could vaporize them. Her wingmate radioed dryly, “There goes another bird,” accepting what had become routine when Suicide flew. Command barely reprimanded her—by now, expectations adjusted around her—and Reaper let the incident slide. Though she continued flying missions afterward, 419 marked the high point of her military career.

The Polygamy Wars ended in fire and fury when Suicide brought her Falcon down hard into a Utah City subdivision during the final assault of 419 IE. As her main thrusters slagged a rebel truck and sent flitters toppling like toys, she set the shuttle down amid burning homes and narrow streets. Marines under Kray and Staff Sergeant John Parker stormed the neighborhood the moment the ramp dropped. Rather than remain aboard, Suicide grabbed her sidearm and followed, over Kray’s clear objections—he didn’t want her on the ground, but she wasn’t one to sit back and wait. As they closed in on the last pocket of resistance, Kray captured the insurgent leader alongside known radicals Tyler Wat, Riley, and Boone. Both Suicide and Parker tried to dissuade Kray from invoking Section 11, the Compact’s rarely used authority to carry out immediate field executions for treason and military abuse. But Kray, with a gleam in his eye and a tone bordering on euphoric, recited the necessary formula with a reverence that made Suicide recoil. She would never forget the look on his face as he ordered the man’s death—not with regret, but with pleasure. That day ended the war, but for Suicide, it marked something else: a growing unease with those who celebrated war for its own sake.

In the final weeks of the war in 419 IE, now Force Admiral Burke summoned Suicide aboard the Hancock and offered her a promotion to Lieutenant Commander—with the added position of wing commander, replacing the outgoing Reaper. Suicide, however, declined. She voiced concerns about Lucius Kray, specifically his abuse of Section 11 executions, including one shooting in the back. Though Burke tried to defend the technical legality of the acts, Suicide couldn’t ignore the pleasure Kray seemed to take in killing. Despite the offer aligning with her father’s dreams and honoring Akrad’s memory, Suicide replied, “I can’t, Admiral. I have to respectfully decline.” Burke promoted her anyway, saluted her as Lieutenant Commander Cui, and told her, should she ever change her mind, there would always be a place for her in the Navy.

Time on Aphrodite

Shortly after, Suicide met Tol Germanicus—an enigmatic advisor to the Compact and silent power behind Dasarius Interstellar—who saw in her the kind of sharp, unconventional mind the private sector needed. With nothing tying her to uniform anymore, she accepted his offer. Within a month, she was flying under Dasarius contract—no rank, no politics, just missions. And for the first time in years, she felt like herself again.

n 421 IE, Suicide arrived on Aphrodite to begin her new role as a civilian contractor for Dasarius Interstellar, a major shift from her prior life as a pilot and soldier. During the shuttle ride to Sanctuary, she meets Kurz, a gruff but fair-minded supervisor who offers her a blunt introduction to Aphrodite’s complexities—where the local heat, politics, and grudges run equally hot. Though their interaction is brief, it sets the tone for her early experiences on the planet. Later, while exploring the outskirts of the city in search of a quiet place to meditate, she has a chance encounter with a quiet man who introduces himself simply as Fred. He is Frederick Ansel, the founder of Cubism. Their short conversation touches on philosophy, war, and the burden of legacy. Ansel gently encourages Suicide to seek stillness, not answers, and reminding her that peace, like faith, is often personal and private. It is a sharp contrast to the violent faction of the religion that festers in Aphrodite’s civil strife.

Eventually, she left the Aphrodite and settled in a cabin near the Founders' Mine on Amargosa. She lived in relative isolation until the Gelt invasion, when she reemerged to take a central role in organizing resistance efforts across the continent.

Role in the Resistance

Suicide is a key field leader in the resistance. She assembles and leads an overland team tasked with contacting survivors of the Ban Ki-moon, a crashed Compact cruiser lying off the western coast of Amargosa’s inhabited continent. She is known for:

  • Making difficult, often morally complex decisions under pressure

  • Balancing strategic efficiency with a fierce protectiveness toward her team

  • Tolerating and using individuals like Tyler Wat as necessary evils

  • Holding her team—including teenagers—to professional standards

She frequently works alongside Colonel Diana Jovann but functions with independent authority. Her leadership is rarely questioned, even when it borders on intimidating.

Post-Liberation

In the aftermath of Storming Amargosa, Suicide deepens her role as JT’s chosen mother and fiercest advocate. She helps secure their new ship, the Goldeneye, and pushes JT toward embracing his future as a pilot and officer, even as he struggles with the lingering trauma of war. Though outwardly gruff, Suicide takes quiet pride in JT’s growth, encouraging him without smothering his independence. Her steady presence offers JT a form of family stability he has lacked since childhood, and her faith in his abilities becomes a critical foundation as he rebuilds his life on a scarred but slowly healing Amargosa.

Kidnapping and Rescue of Jayne Best

In 432. in the wake of an assassination attempt on Governor Douglas Best, his wife, Jayne Best, disappears under mysterious circumstances, prompting Suicide to rejoin active duty. A baby, later identified as Naomi Best, is left on Suicide’s doorstep, signaling a deeper conspiracy. Suicide calls upon JT Austin to help get the child to safety, ultimately delivering Naomi to Tishla, First Citizen of Hanar, who assumes temporary custody while Suicide and JT report to Amargosan authorities. Their reunion with Tishla in JT’s remote cabin reveals the child is part of a larger, targeted campaign against the Best family, possibly aimed at halting the spread of Thulian amortality—a process Jayne and Douglas had undergone. Suicide suspects someone wants to prevent Amargosa from choosing independence or alliance with Hanar.

As Suicide investigates the bombing of the Thulian Colony and the aerial attack that destroyed her own ship, she uncovers evidence linking the sabotage to JunoCorp—a shadowy biotech firm responsible for past atrocities. With JT’s help, she delivers Naomi into safe hands and travels to New Lansdorp to check on Governor Best, now in a regenerative coma. Meanwhile, the revelation of a JunoCorp symbol on a recovered projectile and Tishla’s covert presence on the planet suggest a fragile alliance of offworld factions defending Amargosa in the Compact’s absence. As tensions rise, Suicide prepares for further incursions, knowing that Naomi and her missing mother may hold the key to both the planet’s future and the secrets of human immortality.

With Jayne Best still missing, Suicide leads a covert mission that takes them first to Menh, a satellite of the Orag homeworld Gohem, where a local contact provides critical intel: Jayne is being held on Marilyn, having sought refuge with its governor—McLaren, who also serves as the Grand Dimaj of the Temple of Marilyn. Suicide, JT Austin, Connor Duffy, and Mitsuko Yamato proceed to Marilyn under cover, aided by Duffy’s camouflage tech to bypass planetary surveillance. McLaren had welcomed Jayne under the guise of protection, but his true allegiance lies with the resurrectionist faction surrounding JunoCorp. In a tense confrontation inside the governor’s residence, JT’s barely-contained fury and Mitsuko’s subtle invocation of her royal connections break McLaren’s carefully curated facade. The pair take turns calling him “Larry,” stripping away his titles and dignity until, cornered and rattled, he yields Jayne’s location. The mission not only sets the stage for her rescue but publicly cracks the veneer of Marilyn’s leadership, exposing its complicity in a broader conspiracy against the Thulian Clinic and Amargosa’s uncertain future.

McLaren’s confession sends the team to Walton, a failed core world reduced to a post-apocalyptic ruin, its once-proud cities now crumbling beneath poisoned skies and constant chemical storms. Jayne Best is located in District 19, one of several so-called “recovery zones” turned into experimental abattoirs by JunoCorp. There, they find Jez Salamacis—fanatical devotee of Marcus Leitman—preparing to vivisect Jayne into a set of biological samples for resurrection research. The assault team launches a brutal infiltration, with Suicide and Duffy clearing a path through a gauntlet of failed biotech horrors. During the escape, JT is severely wounded while shielding Jayne from a blast—his lung collapsed and ribcage shattered. Mitsuko holds Jez at gunpoint while Suicide retrieves the barely conscious JT, forcing a desperate medevac to orbit. Jayne is rescued moments before dissection, her mind and body intact but shaken. Walton’s desolation—and the depravity found there—solidifies the growing realization that the Compact’s greatest threat may no longer come from war, but from within its own neglected systems and corrupted science.

They escape Walton and rush JT to Farigha, now a Metisian protectorate rebuilding after the Gelt occupation. His condition is critical—collapsed lung, shattered ribs, and massive internal trauma. Thulian medics, operating under covert Metisian sanction, stabilize him in a regeneration suite near Solaria, the planet’s new capital. Throughout his touch-and-go recovery, Suicide never leaves his side, overwhelmed by the realization that, for all her discipline and detachment, JT is her son in every way that matters. While he fights for his life, a historic summit takes place in Solaria: John Farno, Governor Best, and Governor-General Jovann meet with a Gelt admiral who delivers a devastating truth—Jez Salamacis murdered Sovereign Sansar Aryanna, and Marcus Leitman is the key barrier to peace. Jovann, with Best and Farno’s support, announces that Metis is seceding from the Compact, taking Farigha and Amargosa with it and laying the foundation for a new interstellar republic.

As JT’s condition stabilizes, Persephone contacts Suicide with a discreet order: escort Jayne Best to Thule, where she can recover safely and remain beyond the reach of Leitman’s resurrectionist faction. Suicide and Jayne depart aboard the Bova, a cutting-edge Metisian stealth vessel based on the Khirovsky-class, avoiding known Compact routes. Guided by Persephone’s precise instructions, they access the decaying remnants of the Yaphit Pass, a collapsing natural wormhole network long believed inert. The Bova slips through the pass and arrives in Thule’s orbit, where Jayne is transferred to the Thulian High Clinic, safe but hidden from the galaxy. As Suicide watches the purple world take Jayne into its embrace, she realizes the war for Amargosa is no longer about territory or survival—but about who defines humanity’s future. And she isn’t sure the Compact has a place in it anymore.

Suicide escorts Jayne Best to Thule aboard the stealth ship Bova, arriving amid intense Thulian isolationism and suspicion. Despite being fired upon as a warning, she lands successfully and delivers Jayne—still in a medically induced stasis after her near-fatal assault by Juno—to Thule’s elite regenerative clinic. There, Thulian doctors begin the process of healing her, though her condition is critical. Suicide is brought to a cliffside cottage to meet Suri Mongano, a Thulian founder, and later joins a leadership circle at Founders’ Hall. Together, they witness a threatening broadcast from Jez Salamacis, who demands Jayne and Suicide be turned over to Juno-backed authorities. Thule refuses. Determined to act, Suicide launches herself aboard the orbiting Anna Khirovsky—a compromised Compact Navy ship—by riding a missile casing while wearing only a pressure suit and scuba gear.

Once aboard, Suicide finds Davra Andraste covertly working on the ship. They stage a false hostage situation to breach the CNC, where they confront Captain Hiller and Salamacis. After Salamacis murders Hiller under a warped interpretation of Compact law, Suicide triggers a core ejection protocol. With the ship’s command in chaos, Davra wounds Salamacis during an attempted second killing. Once in custody (in the Goldeneye‘s airlock, as JT points out, “with the fewest safeties”), Jez activates a self-destruct mechanism in her bloodstream—releasing a euphoric drug cocktail that leaves her nearly orgasmic as she burns alive and turns to ash. Before dying, she confesses she wishes Marcus Leitman would be the one to destroy her whenever he uses her sexually. The incident leaves Suicide shaken. Her self-imolation exposes the dangerous cult-like extremism festering within Juno’s ranks.

In the aftermath of the Khirovsky incident, Suicide confronts JT Austin aboard the Goldeneye to deliver a new mission: return to Compact space and complete officer training to legitimize his field commission. The order comes from Admiral Burke and Rear Admiral Quentin Austin, but Suicide frames it as a necessity—Juno has infiltrated the ranks, and JT is needed as a trusted insider. She also reveals her own decision to undergo Thulian amortality treatment on Amargosa, a choice she once rejected. Their conversation turns personal as she urges JT to accept both his duty and his complicated bond with Tishla, quietly setting the stage for him to seek help from his estranged mother—something Suicide knows he’ll resist until there’s no other choice.

Relationships

  • Cui Jiao-long: Suicide’s relationship with her father, Lieutenant Commander Cui Jiao-long, began under tension—he was disappointed by her small size at birth and questioned her strength. A traditionalist and military man, he initially struggled to connect with her but softened when confronted with her quiet resilience and budding talent as an artist. Over time, despite frequent clashes in worldview, he became a quiet but steadfast supporter of the woman she would become.
  • Akrad Izumi: Akrad Izumi was Suicide’s first husband and a fellow pilot whose death during the Polygamy Wars left a lasting scar. Though she had other lovers afterward, none held the same space in her heart. She still wears a bullet locket containing his ashes, a tribute to the man who shaped both her flying and her outlook in war. His memory remains one of the two great anchors in her personal life.

  • JT Austin – Over the course of the series, Suicide’s bond with JT Austin evolves into a fierce and unconventional mother-son relationship. Though their connection begins through war and mentorship, by the time of Suicide Run, JT openly calls her “Mom”—a term loaded with affection, irony, and truth. He uses it to comfort her in a moment of crisis, and while it’s partially in jest, Suicide is visibly moved, reflecting how deeply she’s accepted him as her son by choice, not birth.

    Their connection is tested and reaffirmed when Suicide receives an infant—Naomi Best—at her doorstep and calls on JT without hesitation. His willingness to drop everything and fly to her speaks volumes, as does the ease with which they collaborate to protect the baby. JT even jokes about his potential as a father, and Suicide gently mocks his piloting and parenting skills, but both know their bond is real and unwavering. This emotional foundation allows Suicide to place trust in JT’s judgment and integrity, even when they’re being pulled in different political directions.

    Though they experience a rift later—due to Suicide’s affiliation with Cubism—the events of Suicide Run show that at their core, they are family. Suicide’s quiet heartbreak during their estrangement, especially as confessed to Ellie in Winter Games, is set against moments of true maternal pride and protectiveness. Their bond is forged in trauma, tested by ideology, and ultimately anchored in love and loyalty.

  • Connor Duffy – Respects his technical skill, often assigning him critical sabotage and demolition tasks.

  • Relationship with Ellie Nardino: Suicide and Ellie Nardino share a bond forged in war and sharpened by mutual respect. From the early days of the Amargosa occupation, Suicide sees in Ellie not just a capable fighter but a future leader—sharp, resilient, and mission-driven. Their relationship evolves into one of quiet mentorship, with Suicide offering guidance while rarely coddling. Ellie, in turn, treats Suicide with a mixture of deference and earned familiarity, viewing her as both a role model and a kind of surrogate mother.

    During their year-long estrangement from JT, Ellie remains caught between them, offering loyalty to both without taking sides. In Winter Games, she visits Suicide at her remote home and finds the older woman unusually candid. Over tea, Suicide admits how deeply the rift with JT has hurt her, revealing a rare glimpse of vulnerability and emotional depth. The conversation affirms not only her bond with Ellie, but the trust Suicide places in the next generation she helped shape.

  • Eric Yuwono – Suicide and Ellie Nardino share a bond forged in the crucible of the Amargosa occupation, maturing into one of deep mutual respect and unspoken mentorship. Suicide sees in Ellie a mirror of her younger self—fierce, tactically sharp, and driven by a fierce sense of justice. Though never openly sentimental, Suicide makes space for Ellie in ways she rarely does for others, offering hard-won wisdom without softening its edges. Ellie, in turn, addresses Suicide with a blend of irreverence and reverence, treating her as both a role model and a pragmatic ally.

    By Suicide Run, Ellie has evolved into a key resistance leader, commanding the respect of humans, Gelt, and sapient lycanths alike. When Suicide’s shuttle is shot down near the Thulian Colony, Ellie is the one who rescues her, flanked by a lycanth partner. Their interaction crackles with banter and familiarity, but also underscores Ellie’s rise: she gives orders, Suicide listens. Still, Suicide’s protective instincts persist—especially when Ellie refers to herself by her war name, “Chapaan,” a title Suicide treats with a mixture of pride and concern.

    Their quiet camaraderie is further deepened during a critical moment in Winter Games, when Ellie visits Suicide at her isolated lakeside cabin. There, over tea and firelight, Suicide confesses the emotional toll of her estrangement from JT—a moment of rare vulnerability that cements Ellie’s place not just as an ally, but as the inheritor of Suicide’s legacy. Ellie listens without judgment, proving that she is not only the next generation of leadership, but also the emotional bridge between fractured parts of Suicide’s chosen family.

  • Davra Andraste – Suicide recognized early on that Davra Andraste was the sharpest mind among the Children of Amargosa—rational, focused, and quietly lethal. In Second Wave, Suicide stood by Davra after she killed a would-be rapist to protect Tishla, insisting the act be seen for what it was: necessary. By Suicide Run, Davra had become a junior lieutenant aboard the Anna Khirovsky, yet didn’t hesitate to aid Suicide when she found her covertly aboard the ship—no questions, just loyalty. Their bond evolved into one of deep mutual respect, each seeing in the other a reflection of what it meant to survive with purpose. To Suicide, Davra wasn’t just an ally—she was a rightful heir to the kind of leadership no uniform could teach.

  • Lucius Kray – Suicide first met Lucius Kray during the Polygamy Wars, when he was a timid first lieutenant assigned to an extraction she flew. At the time, he seemed rattled but eager to prove himself—qualities she initially dismissed. However, as the war progressed, she watched his bloodlust grow, his thrill in violence unsettling even for a hardened pilot like her. By war’s end, Kray’s transformation into a predator made her nervous enough to retire, long before he reemerged as a self-styled warlord on Amargosa.

  • Tyler Wat – Suicide first crossed paths with Tyler Wat at the end of the Polygamy Wars, when he surrendered the rebel leader’s unwilling sister wives rather than let them be used as bargaining chips. His act of conscience spared him, Riley, and Boone a Section 11 execution—earning instead hard labor and, eventually, Suicide’s guarded respect. By the time of the Amargosa occupation, Wat had matured into a pragmatic if jaded operator, someone Suicide trusted enough to guide Eric Yuwono in infiltrating Kray’s militia.

  • Mitsuko Yamato – After the liberation of Gilead (Hanar), Suicide forms an immediate and unspoken bond with Mitsuko Yamato, recognizing in her a kindred spirit—disciplined, formidable, and unafraid to challenge power, including Suicide herself. Though their backgrounds are vastly different—one a rogue pilot turned war hero, the other a noble-born special forces officer—they find common ground in their pragmatism and shared disdain for bullshit.

    Suicide respects Mitsuko’s role as JT’s combat trainer and emotional ballast, often deferring to her judgment in tactical situations where finesse or precision is required. In turn, Mitsuko acknowledges Suicide as JT’s moral compass and surrogate mother, treating her with a deference few others receive. Their alliance is never theatrical but always felt—often working in sync without needing to speak, planning operations or steering JT without overt coordination.

    By Suicide Run, the bond has matured into quiet camaraderie and strategic partnership. Suicide frequently refers to Mitsuko as “his big sister,” an inside joke that underscores the layered family JT has built around him. In dangerous situations, Mitsuko is one of the few whose presence Suicide finds reassuring—not just because of her skill, but because she knows Mitsuko will do what needs to be done without hesitation or drama. Their mutual respect becomes one of the series’ strongest examples of female solidarity forged in war and maintained through trust.

  • Tishla:
    While Suicide is wary of the Gelt First Citizen of Hanar at first, she gradually comes to respect Tishla’s resolve and leadership. Their relationship is complicated—Suicide sees the potential for betrayal but also recognizes Tishla’s sincere desire to forge peace between humans and Gelt. She keeps JT at arm’s length from Tishla at first, suspecting a budding attraction, but eventually relents. Suicide even intervenes when others question Tishla’s loyalty, recognizing the necessity of building bridges in the aftermath of war.
  • Eileen Burke: Suicide served under Eileen Burke early in her career and considers her both a mentor and a professional benchmark. Though their temperaments differ—Burke is measured where Suicide is brash—their shared experiences forged a deep mutual respect. Burke often tried to promote her, recognizing talent beneath the chaos, but Suicide preferred action to rank. Even years later, Burke remains one of the few people Suicide instinctively trusts.
  • Quentin Austin: Suicide met Quentin “Reaper” Austin on the battlefield shortly after a crash cost him his original left hand, and their bond was forged in blood and adrenaline from the start. As her flight commander, he never tried to tame her recklessness, only channeled it into effectiveness. They shared a grim wit and a deep mutual respect, both thriving in chaos. Reaper’s influence shaped her combat instincts—and years later, she would quietly take on a maternal role for his son, JT.
  • Tol Germanicus: Suicide first met Tol Germanicus after the Polygamy Wars, believing him to be an eccentric germophobe with too many secrets and a knack for precision. She took a job with Dasarius Interstellar at his invitation, never suspecting his true identity as a digitized consciousness. Their bond grew from mutual respect—her blunt competence matching his calculated foresight—and over time, he became a rare constant in her chaotic career. When she finally learned the truth, it only deepened her trust.
  • Douglas Best: While not close, Suicide developed a quiet respect for Douglas Best, impressed by his moral spine and stubborn refusal to be anyone’s puppet—even during the Compact’s lowest moments. Their interactions were rare but meaningful, especially during the crisis in Suicide Run, when she found herself protecting his child and witnessing firsthand what his family’s integrity cost them. In her view, Best wasn’t a warrior—but he stood his ground like one when it mattered most.
  • Jayne Best: Suicide’s relationship with Jayne Best began at a distance—an administrator she respected more than expected—but deepened the moment Jayne entrusted her infant daughter to Suicide’s care during a planetary crisis. That single act forged a fierce loyalty. Though their direct interactions remained limited, Suicide came to see Jayne as a rare blend of compassion and resolve—someone who, like her, made hard choices quietly and without fanfare.

Personality and Leadership Style

  • Strategic and unsentimental, except when it comes to the safety of her team

  • Quiet but commanding, using presence rather than volume to lead

  • Emotionally closed, shaped by the loss of both a husband and wife

  • Efficient and unflinching, willing to discipline even sympathetic figures like Davra or JT

  • Often acts with foresight and caution, contrasting with the more idealistic impulses of her younger fighters

Legacy

Suicide is the steel thread that binds the youth-led resistance on Amargosa. Though she rarely shows emotion, her quiet care for those under her command—especially JT—defines her legacy just as much as her battlefield decisions. She represents resilience forged in personal loss and discipline shaped by war.

Appearances: The Children of Amargosa, Second Wave, Storming Amargosa, “Lizzy“, Winter Games