Suicide

Species: Human
Birthplace: Tian
Birthdate: 386 IE
Affiliation: Compact Resistance
Call Sign: “Suicide”
Real Name: Cui Yun

Overview

Known by her call sign Suicide, Cui Yun is a former Compact Navy pilot and a respected resistance leader on Amargosa. She operates under her call sign throughout the conflict, a name earned through years of executing high-risk missions. Suicide brings both strategic discipline and emotional gravity to the resistance, mentoring younger fighters while carrying the weight of profound personal losses.

Background

Originally from Tian, Suicide’s path to military service began in grief. Her husband was killed in the Polygamy Wars, prompting her to join the Compact Navy. During her service, she endured a second tragedy when her wife was killed in a terrorist bombing on Aphrodite, an event that deepened her emotional reserve and hardened her resolve.

She was born Cui Yun in 386 IE during a rainstorm in the Tianese capital of Shandug, a tiny infant barely over two kilos. Her birth was a moment of personal crisis for her father, Cui Jiao-long, a traditionalist and a military officer who feared his daughter’s small size made her weak. Her mother, Cui Ya, fiercely defended her and insisted they raise Yun to be Tianese rather than cling to outdated Earth-born ideals. It was Ya who chose the name Yun, meaning “cloud” in Mandarin, calling her a dream come true. Her father eventually warmed to her, recognizing her strength when the newborn seized his finger and quieted instantly.

As a child, Yun showed an early talent for drawing and an aversion to the militarism imposed by some of her teachers. A traumatic experience with an overbearing gym instructor who treated martial arts like boot camp ended with Yun straining her knee—and with her mother threatening divorce if her father did not support their daughter. That confrontation marked a shift in her family dynamic. Her father, humbled, stood up for Yun publicly, even bringing his new wingmate—a formidable woman named Eileen—to confront the school. It was the first sign that Yun would be raised not to conform, but to endure and resist. The support she received in that moment likely planted the seeds of resilience she would need later in life.

Yun met Akrad Izumi at the age of fourteen after a schoolyard fight left them both in the nurse’s office—him with bruised ribs, her with a black eye. When he stood up to a group of boys ganging up on her, it marked the start of a deep and enduring connection. Akrad’s easy charm and cultural curiosity disarmed her, and despite her father’s harsh demeanor, Yun was grinning by the time they parted ways that day. It was the first spark of something stronger than friendship, a moment of kindness that began defining how she saw strength—not in conformity, but in defiance and care. Her father’s reaction surprised her: instead of reprimanding her, he pulled her into an embrace and told her he was proud. That moment of approval reinforced her budding sense of self-worth and began to reconcile the military discipline of her upbringing with the compassion she found in Akrad.

Relationship with Akrad and Beginning of Flight Career

In 408 IE, at age 22, she was painting in a public park when she was reunited with Akrad Izumi, now an ensign aboard the CNV Hancock. Their reunion sparked a deep emotional connection. Akrad’s visit became a turning point; within three years, she had finished her education and entered civilian flight training. In 411 IE, as she transitioned into a career as a licensed civilian pilot. Akrad proposed aboard a training shuttle orbiting Tian. Yun accepted, stipulating that their first act as an engaged couple be deeply intimate. They made love for the first time in microgravity, sealing a bond rooted in trust, affection, and shared transformation. That moment, quiet and weightless, remained with her long after Akrad’s death and helped form the emotional core beneath the legend of Suicide.

In 413 IE, while still a civilian pilot known only as Cui Yun—or “Little Wing” to Akrad Izumi—she took a freight run through the Invictus Belt that would redefine her. Believing pirate activity in the region was exaggerated, she instead found herself facing a jury-rigged attack vessel latching onto her hull with an inflatable boarding collar. With no military training, Yun responded with brutal creativity: she vented her ship’s atmosphere and blew out her own cockpit window, ejecting the pirates and herself into thirty seconds of hard vacuum before emergency systems sealed the breach. She later joked to Eric Yuwono, “If it ever happens to you, you will shit your pants.” The Navy ultimately retrieved her and salvaged the vessel, and while she remained a civilian, word spread of the painter pilot who survived vacuum and pirates in the same breath. She wasn’t called “Suicide” yet—but the legend had begun.

By 415 IE, Yun had married Akrad and adopted his surname, becoming Yun Izumi. She was still flying as a civilian but beginning to edge closer to the world of military operations, thanks to her husband’s influence and her own growing reputation. That year marked a hopeful milestone: she discovered she was pregnant, her nanite swarm confirming it early one morning after a wave of unexpected nausea. Overjoyed, she woke Akrad with the news in the most intimate way possible. Their shared joy underscored how deeply entwined their lives had become—not just as lovers or partners, but as a family in the making.

In 416 IE, Yun Izumi’s world collapsed in a single day. Recovering from emergency surgery at Saripur Hospital on Tian, she learned she had lost her unborn daughter—an event she insisted on telling her husband, Akrad, personally. But that chance never came. Captain Eileen Burke and Flight Commander Flarr of the CNS Hancock arrived instead, delivering the news that Akrad had been killed in action. Yun, still adjusting to married life and her new identity as “Izumi,” was left devastated—stripped of her future as a mother and wife in the span of hours. The loss hollowed her, but also set her on the path to becoming the fearless pilot the Navy would one day nickname “Suicide.”

Navy Career and Polygamy Wars

Still reeling from the loss of her husband and unborn child, Yun Izumi marched into a naval recruiting station on Tian in 416 IE, determined to reclaim purpose through service. The recruiter, skeptical of her motivations and unimpressed with her civilian flight record, warned her she lacked the background for military-grade craft. Yun snapped back that she’d once blown out her own cockpit window to kill a pirate, surviving thirty seconds of hard vacuum—a feat few Navy pilots could match. She drove the point home by naming her late husband: Lieutenant Commander Akrad Izumi, the Hancock’s lead Interceptor pilot. The moment shifted when the recruiter received instructions from above—likely prompted by someone who knew exactly who she was—and admitted her on the spot. Though she signed in as Cui, not Izumi, she walked out not as a grieving widow but as a future legend, driven by loss and fire the Navy had not expected.

In 418 IE, Lieutenant Cui Yun flew a rescue mission during the Polygamy Wars, piloting a Falcon shuttle packed with freed coerced wives from Goshen’s insurgent compounds. With her ship damaged and enemy fighters in pursuit, she had no choice but to bleed speed fast—and did so by deliberately clipping three buildings on her descent. Each structure housed enemy emplacements. Two were destroyed outright, and the third had its defenses disabled by the impact. The maneuver not only saved the evacuees but disrupted the local rebel command center. Though she landed safely and without loss of life among her passengers, the local air commander overrode her protest and changed her call sign from “Little Wing” to “Suicide.” At the time, Yun hated the name, seeing it as a flippant badge for a reckless stunt. But the name stuck, spreading throughout the Navy and beyond, marking her forever as the pilot who turned a doomed mission into a victory using sheer nerve, precision, and just enough insanity.

Later that same year, Cui Yun flew her first Interceptor combat sortie in support of a ground offensive in New Salt Lake Province. When her squadron was pinned by a hidden artillery nest that had already taken out multiple craft and threatened the entire operation, Yun flew directly into the line of fire. With her ship already damaged, she pitched into a full attack dive, guided her failing Interceptor into the heart of the nest, and ejected milliseconds before impact. The resulting explosion obliterated the emplacements. She hit the water hard and was fished out of a lagoon by rescue forces—only to find herself facing Lieutenant Commander Quentin Austin, call sign “Reaper.” Rather than reprimand her, Reaper simply grinned and said, “So you’re the real Suicide.” It was the first time she heard the call sign spoken with admiration rather than derision. Though she never fully embraced the name, she stopped correcting people after that moment.

By 419 IE, Yun had firmly established herself as one of the Navy’s most daring and unorthodox shuttle pilots, flying under the command of Reaper aboard the CNV Hancock. During a pivotal mission over New Kirtland, Goshen, Suicide was ordered to hold back while a kinetic strike was prepped to eliminate a fortified enemy position. Learning that a platoon of Marines was still trapped—including a young and visibly terrified Lucius Kray—she instead dumped her Falcon’s orbital fuel and threaded the shuttle through treetop cover, evading artillery fire to extract the squad before the strike could vaporize them. Her wingmate radioed dryly, “There goes another bird,” accepting what had become routine when Suicide flew. Command barely reprimanded her—by now, expectations adjusted around her—and Reaper let the incident slide. Though she continued flying missions afterward, 419 marked the high point of her military career.

The Polygamy Wars ended in fire and fury when Suicide brought her Falcon down hard into a Utah City subdivision during the final assault of 419 IE. As her main thrusters slagged a rebel truck and sent flitters toppling like toys, she set the shuttle down amid burning homes and narrow streets. Marines under Kray and Staff Sergeant John Parker stormed the neighborhood the moment the ramp dropped. Rather than remain aboard, Suicide grabbed her sidearm and followed, over Kray’s clear objections—he didn’t want her on the ground, but she wasn’t one to sit back and wait. As they closed in on the last pocket of resistance, Kray captured the insurgent leader alongside known radicals Tyler Wat, Riley, and Boone. Both Suicide and Parker tried to dissuade Kray from invoking Section 11, the Compact’s rarely used authority to carry out immediate field executions for treason and military abuse. But Kray, with a gleam in his eye and a tone bordering on euphoric, recited the necessary formula with a reverence that made Suicide recoil. She would never forget the look on his face as he ordered the man’s death—not with regret, but with pleasure. That day ended the war, but for Suicide, it marked something else: a growing unease with those who celebrated war for its own sake.

In the final weeks of the war in 419 IE, now Force Admiral Burke summoned Suicide aboard the Hancock and offered her a promotion to Lieutenant Commander—with the added position of wing commander, replacing the outgoing Reaper. Suicide, however, declined. She voiced concerns about Lucius Kray, specifically his abuse of Section 11 executions, including one shooting in the back. Though Burke tried to defend the technical legality of the acts, Suicide couldn’t ignore the pleasure Kray seemed to take in killing. Despite the offer aligning with her father’s dreams and honoring Akrad’s memory, Suicide replied, “I can’t, Admiral. I have to respectfully decline.” Burke promoted her anyway, saluted her as Lieutenant Commander Cui, and told her, should she ever change her mind, there would always be a place for her in the Navy.

Time on Aphrodite

In 421 IE, Suicide accepted a civilian contract with Dasarius Interstellar and relocated to Aphrodite, the Helios system’s most volatile Class-E world. Her initial assignment centered around aiding infrastructure logistics for the Renewal Project—a corporate-led initiative to pacify the war-torn planet through jobs and rebuilding. Dasarius stationed her out of Sanctuary, the provisional capital. The city’s prefab skyline was a far cry from the polished towers of Tian or Earth; in Suicide’s words, it had started as “a bunch of sheds and extruded warehouses.”

While in Sanctuary, Suicide encountered Frederick Ansel, a spacecraft engineer and founder of the Cubist philosophy. Their first conversation occurred on the outskirts of the city during one of Suicide’s early walks for solitude and reflection. Ansel’s calm demeanor and enigmatic belief system resonated deeply with her. Though not overtly religious, Suicide found in Cubism a vocabulary for the internal transformation she had already begun—one centered on grief, identity, and renewal. It wasn’t that she converted; rather, she recognized herself in it.

Her assignments soon expanded to include both logistics and combat operations. She flew solo relief missions into unstable territories, delivering supplies to isolated Kolkat and Penqu villages. On one of these missions, Suicide rescued a wounded artist named Priya, who had attempted to shield others during a Penqu raid. Priya, whose sari was splattered with blood and paint, would become her wife.

Their bond rekindled Suicide’s passion for art and a quieter life. The two married and moved to Sumat, a rural village hours from Sanctuary. They lived first in a 3D-printed home, later sleeping in a mud hut during the sweltering months—an experience Suicide later recounted with both amusement and lingering sadness. Their private life was idyllic, even playful. Suicide described Aphrodite’s climate as “a jungle steam bath,” yet found it a place where love could thrive.

Suicide remained active as a field agent, though she often clashed with Gerard Kurz, a fellow Dasarius officer and zealous Cubist convert. While she maintained regular contact with Ansel at Mt. Buxanshal, she became increasingly concerned about Kurz’s influence and his drift toward extremism. In her words, Kurz was “someone who misses bloodshed when it’s gone.”

That bloodshed returned in devastating fashion. A café bombing in Sanctuary—plotted by radical Cubists aligned with Kurz—killed Priya. The attack escalated violence between Aphrodite’s two main ethnic groups: the Penqu and the Kolkats. Suicide watched as Cubism fractured—between those like Ansel, who taught peace and personal alignment with a living universe, and radicals who saw divine sanction in destruction.

Priya’s funeral pyre was lit atop Mt. Buxanshal, with Ansel himself presiding. In the days that followed, Suicide gave away most of their possessions and left Aphrodite behind. She refused a new assignment with Dasarius, instead retreating to Amargosa.

Move to Amargosa and Pre-Invasion Years

Following her departure from Tian, Suicide relocated to Amargosa with the assistance of John Parker and Quan. She took up residence in a remote shack deep in the Old Mining District, seeking solitude but remaining loosely connected to the local resistance network.

During this period, she occasionally flew missions for the Colonial government, leveraging her experience as a combat pilot. Most notably, she was tasked with stashing two emergency Projection Drive–equipped vessels in a hidden location on Amargosa, to be used only in the event of invasion or planetary catastrophe.

Despite her isolation, Suicide’s reputation continued to draw attention. Jez Salamacis, a fervent agent of Juno, once attempted to recruit her for the organization’s agenda, but Suicide forcefully rejected the offer and drove her off the planet.

She was later visited by Reaper, a covert operative and old acquaintance, who revealed that John Parker had taken custody of his son. Concerned about the boy’s proximity to the increasingly unstable Lucius Kray, Reaper asked Suicide to assume custody and raise the child in secret. She agreed, beginning a new chapter as the boy’s unofficial guardian.

Role in the Resistance

Suicide emerges as a key field leader in the human resistance during the Gelt occupation of Amargosa. Operating with independent authority but frequently coordinating with Colonel Diana Jovann, she assembles and leads a long-range overland team tasked with locating and contacting survivors of the Ban Ki-moon, a Compact Navy cruiser that crashed off the western coast of the inhabited continent.

She is known for:

Making difficult, often morally complex decisions under pressure
Balancing ruthless strategic efficiency with fierce protectiveness toward her team
Tolerating and deploying individuals like Tyler Wat as necessary evils
Holding all members of her team—including teenagers—to professional standards

Though her leadership style can be intimidating, it is rarely questioned. Her ability to maintain cohesion among a diverse, often volatile group of survivors makes her indispensable to the resistance effort.

Hanar and the Liberation

Suicide departs Amargosa aboard Amargosa One, one of the hidden Projection Drive ships she had previously secured. Traveling with JT Austin, Connor Duffy, Tishla, and a Compact Navy crewman, she reaches Hanar (formerly Gilead) to seek allies for a renewed liberation effort.

On Hanar, Suicide assists in forging a delicate alliance between the human resistance and Gelt settlers opposed to the rogue invasion. She trains local volunteers and works closely with Tishla to organize joint operations, using her status as both a war hero and ruthless tactician to earn reluctant trust on both sides.

When the allied task force returns to Amargosa, Suicide leads a precision strike team tasked with neutralizing the last remaining Gelt fusion weapon. She takes her team to a site near the ruins of Lansdorp—one of the cities destroyed early in the invasion—where intelligence suggests the final bomb is hidden. The mission is successful, but results in heavy casualties and leaves Suicide gravely wounded.

Following the surrender of the Gelt garrison, a Navy special operations NCO executed the captured garrison commander in violation of the Compact’s rules of engagement. Invoking Section 11 of the Compact Charter—which allows for summary execution in cases of military abuse—Suicide personally carried out the execution of the offending NCO. The act, while controversial, was seen as a necessary enforcement of the law in a volatile post-battle environment and reinforced her uncompromising code of conduct.

Her role in the Liberation is widely recognized as pivotal. Both her surgical strike against the hidden fusion device and her involvement in the fall of Riverside underscore her complex legacy as a commander who fused battlefield ferocity with a deep, if often grim, sense of duty and justice.

Post-Liberation

In the aftermath of Storming Amargosa, Suicide deepens her role as JT Austin’s chosen mother and fiercest advocate. She helps secure their new ship, the Goldeneye, and begins taking joint flight assignments with JT—initially for the Compact, later branching into private contracts. The two eventually establish a small flight operation together, based on Amargosa, providing transport, emergency response, and limited recon work to support the planet’s recovery.

Though outwardly gruff, Suicide takes quiet pride in JT’s growth, encouraging him without smothering his independence. She plays a key role in pushing him toward a broader future as both pilot and officer, even as he struggles with the emotional aftermath of war. Her steady presence offers a kind of family stability JT has lacked since childhood, and her unwavering faith in his abilities becomes a cornerstone as he begins rebuilding his life on a scarred but slowly healing Amargosa.

Their business becomes not only a practical venture but a way for Suicide to channel her postwar restlessness into something constructive—flying, teaching, mentoring, and staying one step ahead of the bureaucracies that might try to sideline her. Though she remains a hard-edged survivor, this phase marks a rare period of personal fulfillment for her—anchored by purpose, partnership, and an unconventional but enduring sense of family.

Kidnapping and Rescue of Jayne Best

In 432. in the wake of an assassination attempt on Governor Douglas Best, his wife, Jayne Best, disappears under mysterious circumstances, prompting Suicide to rejoin active duty. A baby, later identified as Naomi Best, is left on Suicide’s doorstep, signaling a deeper conspiracy. Suicide calls upon JT Austin to help get the child to safety, ultimately delivering Naomi to Tishla, First Citizen of Hanar, who assumes temporary custody while Suicide and JT report to Amargosan authorities. Their reunion with Tishla in JT’s remote cabin reveals the child is part of a larger, targeted campaign against the Best family, possibly aimed at halting the spread of Thulian amortality—a process Jayne and Douglas had undergone. Suicide suspects someone wants to prevent Amargosa from choosing independence or alliance with Hanar.

As Suicide investigates the bombing of the Thulian Colony and the aerial attack that destroyed her own ship, she uncovers evidence linking the sabotage to JunoCorp—a shadowy biotech firm responsible for past atrocities. With JT’s help, she delivers Naomi into safe hands and travels to New Lansdorp to check on Governor Best, now in a regenerative coma. Meanwhile, the revelation of a JunoCorp symbol on a recovered projectile and Tishla’s covert presence on the planet suggest a fragile alliance of offworld factions defending Amargosa in the Compact’s absence. As tensions rise, Suicide prepares for further incursions, knowing that Naomi and her missing mother may hold the key to both the planet’s future and the secrets of human immortality.

With Jayne Best still missing, Suicide leads a covert mission that takes them first to Menh, a satellite of the Orag homeworld Gohem, where a local contact provides critical intel: Jayne is being held on Marilyn, having sought refuge with its governor—McLaren, who also serves as the Grand Dimaj of the Temple of Marilyn. Suicide, JT Austin, Connor Duffy, and Mitsuko Yamato proceed to Marilyn under cover, aided by Duffy’s camouflage tech to bypass planetary surveillance. McLaren had welcomed Jayne under the guise of protection, but his true allegiance lies with the resurrectionist faction surrounding JunoCorp. In a tense confrontation inside the governor’s residence, JT’s barely-contained fury and Mitsuko’s subtle invocation of her royal connections break McLaren’s carefully curated facade. The pair take turns calling him “Larry,” stripping away his titles and dignity until, cornered and rattled, he yields Jayne’s location. The mission not only sets the stage for her rescue but publicly cracks the veneer of Marilyn’s leadership, exposing its complicity in a broader conspiracy against the Thulian Clinic and Amargosa’s uncertain future.

McLaren’s confession sends the team to Walton, a failed core world reduced to a post-apocalyptic ruin, its once-proud cities now crumbling beneath poisoned skies and constant chemical storms. Jayne Best is located in District 19, one of several so-called “recovery zones” turned into experimental abattoirs by JunoCorp. There, they find Jez Salamacis—fanatical devotee of Marcus Leitman—preparing to vivisect Jayne into a set of biological samples for resurrection research. The assault team launches a brutal infiltration, with Suicide and Duffy clearing a path through a gauntlet of failed biotech horrors. During the escape, JT is severely wounded while shielding Jayne from a blast—his lung collapsed and ribcage shattered. Mitsuko holds Jez at gunpoint while Suicide retrieves the barely conscious JT, forcing a desperate medevac to orbit. Jayne is rescued moments before dissection, her mind and body intact but shaken. Walton’s desolation—and the depravity found there—solidifies the growing realization that the Compact’s greatest threat may no longer come from war, but from within its own neglected systems and corrupted science.

They escape Walton and rush JT to Farigha, now a Metisian protectorate rebuilding after the Gelt occupation. His condition is critical—collapsed lung, shattered ribs, and massive internal trauma. Thulian medics, operating under covert Metisian sanction, stabilize him in a regeneration suite near Solaria, the planet’s new capital. Throughout his touch-and-go recovery, Suicide never leaves his side, overwhelmed by the realization that, for all her discipline and detachment, JT is her son in every way that matters. While he fights for his life, a historic summit takes place in Solaria: John Farno, Governor Best, and Governor-General Jovann meet with a Gelt admiral who delivers a devastating truth—Jez Salamacis murdered Sovereign Sansar Aryanna, and Marcus Leitman is the key barrier to peace. Jovann, with Best and Farno’s support, announces that Metis is seceding from the Compact, taking Farigha and Amargosa with it and laying the foundation for a new interstellar republic.

As JT’s condition stabilizes, Persephone contacts Suicide with a discreet order: escort Jayne Best to Thule, where she can recover safely and remain beyond the reach of Leitman’s resurrectionist faction. Suicide and Jayne depart aboard the Bova, a cutting-edge Metisian stealth vessel based on the Khirovsky-class, avoiding known Compact routes. Guided by Persephone’s precise instructions, they access the decaying remnants of the Yaphit Pass, a collapsing natural wormhole network long believed inert. The Bova slips through the pass and arrives in Thule’s orbit, where Jayne is transferred to the Thulian High Clinic, safe but hidden from the galaxy. As Suicide watches the purple world take Jayne into its embrace, she realizes the war for Amargosa is no longer about territory or survival—but about who defines humanity’s future. And she isn’t sure the Compact has a place in it anymore.

Suicide escorts Jayne Best to Thule aboard the stealth ship Bova, arriving amid intense Thulian isolationism and suspicion. Despite being fired upon as a warning, she lands successfully and delivers Jayne—still in a medically induced stasis after her near-fatal assault by Juno—to Thule’s elite regenerative clinic. There, Thulian doctors begin the process of healing her, though her condition is critical. Suicide is brought to a cliffside cottage to meet Suri Mongano, a Thulian founder, and later joins a leadership circle at Founders’ Hall. Together, they witness a threatening broadcast from Jez Salamacis, who demands Jayne and Suicide be turned over to Juno-backed authorities. Thule refuses. Determined to act, Suicide launches herself aboard the orbiting Anna Khirovsky—a compromised Compact Navy ship—by riding a missile casing while wearing only a pressure suit and scuba gear.

Once aboard, Suicide finds Davra Andraste covertly working on the ship. They stage a false hostage situation to breach the CNC, where they confront Captain Hiller and Salamacis. After Salamacis murders Hiller under a warped interpretation of Compact law, Suicide triggers a core ejection protocol. With the ship’s command in chaos, Davra wounds Salamacis during an attempted second killing. Once in custody (in the Goldeneye‘s airlock, as JT points out, “with the fewest safeties”), Jez activates a self-destruct mechanism in her bloodstream—releasing a euphoric drug cocktail that leaves her nearly orgasmic as she burns alive and turns to ash. Before dying, she confesses she wishes Marcus Leitman would be the one to destroy her whenever he uses her sexually. The incident leaves Suicide shaken. Her self-imolation exposes the dangerous cult-like extremism festering within Juno’s ranks.

In the aftermath of the Khirovsky incident, Suicide confronts JT Austin aboard the Goldeneye to deliver a new mission: return to Compact space and complete officer training to legitimize his field commission. The order comes from Admiral Burke and Rear Admiral Quentin Austin, but Suicide frames it as a necessity—Juno has infiltrated the ranks, and JT is needed as a trusted insider. She also reveals her own decision to undergo Thulian amortality treatment on Amargosa, a choice she once rejected. Their conversation turns personal as she urges JT to accept both his duty and his complicated bond with Tishla, quietly setting the stage for him to seek help from his estranged mother—something Suicide knows he’ll resist until there’s no other choice.

Rescue of King Edward and Retaking the Queen Maria Sophia

In Checkmate, Suicide arrives aboard the Bova, a Metisian-built support vessel carrying the Goldeneye II—a Zaran-designed Falcon disguised to evade detection. She picks up JT Austin and the Bonapartan royal party from the embattled planet Mud after the Queen Maria Sophia is boarded. With her usual biting sarcasm, she tells JT, “So, you got into trouble and had to call Mommy for help,” a jab referencing her maternal-style protectiveness toward him.

Suicide assists in retaking the Sophie and then escorts the royal delegation—including the newly crowned King Edward—to Hanar. Her professionalism during the mission is unquestioned, but she remains unaware of a critical Cybercommand surveillance photo JT sees later—one that leads him to believe she withheld something significant. Though she is confused and hurt by his sudden emotional withdrawal, their partnership technically endures.

Unexpected Rift with JT Austin

The rift between Suicide and JT emerges not from combat or loyalty issues but from unresolved emotional trauma. JT distances himself, suddenly and without explanation. Unaware of the Cybercommand photo that triggered his doubts, Suicide is devastated by the silence. The two do not speak for nearly a year, despite remaining on overlapping assignments. When Ellie Nardino finally confronts Suicide about it, Suicide breaks down in tears, confiding that she doesn’t understand what went wrong.

Their cold war only ends after Suicide lands in trouble on Aphrodite. The rift between them ends when JT, Mitsuko, and Duffy come to her aid on Aphrodite. After clearing the air, the pair recommit to the mission they had started long ago—bringing the situation with Kurz and the Cubist radicals to a close together, with JT naturally managing to get himself injured again in the process.

Pursuit of Gerard Kurz, Abduction, and Final Confrontation

In 434 IE, after a bombing killed five members of the Bonapartan Household Guard, Mitsuko Yamato traveled to Belsham to investigate the ideological roots of Cubist extremism. There, she reunited with Suicide, who was operating on behalf of Dasarius Interstellar in a counter-insurgency capacity. Informed by notes from Frederick Ansel, the two uncovered evidence that Gerard Kurz—a disgraced Dasarius engineer—had become the ideological leader of a radicalized Cubist sect on Aphrodite. Suicide, recognizing him as the man responsible for the bombing that killed her wife, Priya, joined Mitsuko in tracking him to the jungles of Sumat.

While returning to Suicide’s former home in the village, both women were captured by Kurz’s forces and held in a jungle encampment. Though not physically harmed, they were subjected to psychological manipulation and ideological rants from Kurz. Suicide exploited a moment of trust to convince Mitsuko to hijack a bat wagon under the pretense of a supply run. With help from Boolay, Mitsuko escaped and made contact with the Goldeneye.

She quickly rallied the other Children of Amargosa already in-system—Davra Andraste, Connor Duffy, and Eric Yuwono—while King Edward Windsor retrieved JT Austin and Ellie Nardino to join the rescue.

Suicide remained in captivity for nearly a week, during which Kurz’s forces stole a giant mech from Boone’s Landing. When Mitsuko led a jungle raid to extract Suicide, she succeeded—but was captured herself during the withdrawal. After escaping once again and returning to the team, she and Suicide helped plan and lead the final operation against Kurz’s stronghold at Mt. Buxsanshal.

The assault was two-pronged:

Suicide led a frontal offensive with JT, Davra, Ellie, Keernith, and Patchi
Mitsuko infiltrated the mountain’s lake from the rear, using armor-integrated dive gear to locate a hidden fission bomb

Duffy and Yuwono provided orbital support from the Goldeneye, coordinating telemetry and fire support. Mitsuko succeeded in severing the bomb’s detonator, but Kurz ambushed her in the water. The struggle ended when the detached detonator exploded, killing Kurz and unleashing a shockwave that disrupted the final assault.

The explosion confirmed the bomb’s disarmament. Patchi was killed during the last push, and JT was shot in the leg. Despite the losses, Kurz’s death shattered the radical Cubist network. The campaign of terror ended, and Aphrodite was secured.

The victory also allowed for a long-delayed reconciliation between Suicide and JT. Fighting side by side once more—without hesitation—restored the trust and mutual respect that had once defined their bond. Though neither spoke of it aloud, the healing had begun.

Suicide’s Role in the Hosh Operation

During the Hosh mission, Suicide initially served as the on-ground coordinator, operating from the Goldeneye, which she brought to the surface with a backup team consisting of JT Austin, Ellie Nardino, and Connor Duffy (filling in for Boolay). While Eric Yuwono infiltrated Hosh’s underworld under cover, Suicide stayed in position as a tactical overseer, managing support logistics and offering a contingency extraction plan. However, when JT and Duffy were detained under murky circumstances and Hosh security impounded the Goldeneye, she was forced into direct action.

Suicide incapacitated the guards detaining both the ship and her crew using stun grenades—knocking out her own people in the process to avoid suspicion. As Effie falsified permits and broke JT and Duffy out of custody, Suicide coordinated the regroup. With her full team assembled, she and JT piloted the Goldeneye to a position near Caro’s mansion, enabling the ground team’s final assault. Once the operation secured President Cassan aboard the Valles Marineris, Suicide helped extract both Yuwono and Davra, closing out a mission that had rapidly escalated from a covert op into a full-scale diplomatic incident.

Involvement in Hanarian Coup

In 436, a life pod crash-lands near her home. Inside are First Citizen Tishla of Hanar and her daughter Athena, fleeing a coup led by Gelt and human extremists. Recognizing both the political and personal stakes, Suicide swiftly mobilizes. She alerts JT Austin and arranges a covert overland journey to New Lansdorp, keeping Tishla out of public view while the situation develops.

From there, Suicide becomes part of a three-person escort team—herself, JT, and Zaran engineer Boolay—tasked with transporting Tishla to the Gelt Throneworld. Tishla intends to plead directly with the Sovereign for help restoring Hanar’s legitimate government. During the journey, Suicide:

Commands the Goldeneye and later the Laputan ship Bounty through hostile space.
Fends off attackers during a mid-transit ambush on Armaneya by forcibly decompressing the cockpit.
Coordinates with Delda Rallis of the Laputan Guardianship to secure covert diplomatic passage into Realm space.
Guides Tishla and JT through moral and emotional crucibles—often serving as the calm between their respective storms.

Despite her cynicism, Suicide remains the moral backbone of the mission, challenging Tishla’s repeated self-sacrifice and JT’s recklessness. She is both advisor and anchor, seeing through deception and sentiment with an almost painful clarity.

Restoration of Hanar and Formation of the Alliance

Suicide is present at the Sovereign’s court when Tishla makes her formal appeal—not just to reclaim Hanar, but to position it as a bridge between civilizations. After surviving a harrowing political and military gauntlet, Tishla is reinstated as First Citizen with the Sovereign’s blessing. Suicide stands beside her as Hanar is restored.

She remains at Tishla’s side during the subsequent diplomatic summit, where Hanar merges its interests with those of the Metisian Republic, Thule, and Bonaparte. The resulting alliance—an unprecedented coalition between formerly Compact-aligned, Realm-aligned, and independent powers—sets the stage for a new galactic order.

While Suicide declines any official position, her presence signals quiet authority. Those in the know recognize her as one of the mission’s architects and one of the few people trusted by every faction in the room. After Tishla steps down as first citizen, Suicide moves to Hanar, taking a cabin near the edge of the Human Separatist enclave.

Finding Baker ibn-Aziz and Rescue Mission on Liberty

In 437, Suicide confirms the identity of the disoriented stasis survivor rescued by Ellie Nardino as Baker ibn-Aziz, the former president of the Compact. Realizing that his supposed illness—used to justify Marcus Leitman’s presidency—may have been fabricated, she launches a covert operation to return him to Compact space without alerting Leitman or his agents. Suicide assigns Tishla and Ellie to escort Baker first to Aphrodite, home of a new Thulian Clinic where his condition can be analyzed in secret. She coordinates the effort from Amargosa, arranging for transport, political cover, and a safe route through Liberty—an off-grid sovereign citizen world less likely to draw scrutiny from the Compact or Alien Intelligence.

Though not present during the betrayal by pilot Gav on Liberty, Suicide responds swiftly when Ellie manages to send a distress call. She and JT Austin—accompanied by Mitsuko Yamato, who gleefully ignores protocol—arrive aboard the Goldeneye with a team of the Children of Amargosa. Together, they mount a rapid assault on a hidden facility where Tishla is being held, drugged and prepared as a “gift” by Jez Salamacis for Marcus Leitman. It is Suicide’s coordination and decisiveness that enables the team to extract Tishla safely and force Jez into a temporary retreat. The incident hardens Suicide’s resolve: the resurrectionist cult forming around JunoCorp is more dangerous than she feared, and the struggle to define the post-Compact order is far from over.

Freeing Pelgar Shrian and Obtaining Her Quantum Entanglement Device

Suicide accompanies JT Austin, Tishla, and Ellie Nardino to Armaneya to aid in the extraction of Pelgar Shrian, a Gelt engineer indentured to Laral Raas and in possession of a functioning quantum entanglement drive. Disguised only by reputation, she poses as herself—a reckless, high-rolling Dasarius pilot looking to blow a massive payday—in a rigged reaper game designed to let Duffy win.

Though she has no intention of winning, Suicide outlasts all other players except Duffy and Raas, buying crucial time and destabilizing the game’s manipulation. After JT is poisoned during the event, she helps coordinate Shrian’s escape and the covert seizure of the entanglement device from Raas’s vessel.

Months later, Suicide attends Duffy and Shrian’s wedding aboard the Endeavour, visibly proud and characteristically unsentimental. Her involvement cements her continued role in postwar Compact operations and her loyalty to the remaining Children of Amargosa.

Witness to Transition and Reckoning

In 439 IE, Suicide attended the change-of-command ceremony in which Davra Andraste was formally promoted to captain and granted permanent command of the Endeavour, the next-generation exploration vessel named in her honor. Though Suicide generally avoided ceremonial occasions, she stood among the original Children of Amargosa, honoring Davra’s transformation from guerrilla fighter to commissioned starship captain. Her presence served as a silent testament to the journey they had all taken—from resistance, to war, to something like peace.

Shortly afterward, Suicide was present at the trial of Tol Germanicus, the immortalized mind behind much of Dasarius Interstellar’s influence and the Compact’s wartime survival. Accused of unauthorized manipulation and violations of the Compact Charter, Tol chose to accept full responsibility. Suicide stood as witness as his master node was disconnected in a solemn, voluntary execution—erasure not as punishment, but as penance.

Following the trial, Suicide quietly broke down, overcome by emotion. For only the second time since the Liberation, one of the Children offered her open comfort. Davra let her cry, offering support without judgment. The first such moment had come years earlier, when Ellie Nardino comforted her during the lowest point of her rift with JT Austin. These rare moments of vulnerability hinted at the depth of grief Suicide still carried beneath her unshakable exterior—and the strength of the bonds she had forged with those who once followed her into battle.

The event marked the end of an era. Tol had been mentor and manipulator, savior and shadow. For Suicide, who understood the terrible cost of leadership better than most, the finality of his death closed a chapter she never expected to survive. As others stepped into new roles in a mending Compact, she began, quietly, to disappear from view.

Final Mission and Disappearance

In 439 IE, Suicide led what was believed to be her final mission: the rescue of Tessa Dasarius and Shaneese Dasarius, who were being held hostage in their own home on Earth by operatives loyal to Marcus Leitman. The operation, coordinated from orbit by Ellie Nardino aboard the Goldeneye, included JT Austin, Eric Yuwono, Mitsuko Windsor, and a strike force of Templars—former Bonapartan Household Guards now operating under the Foundation. Connor Duffy maintained the QE box connection throughout the mission.

Aiding the team was an golem housing a submind of Tol Germanicus. During the raid, the team neutralized an iteration of Jez Salamacis and (at least temporarily) killed Leitman himself. Suicide remained aboard the hijacked Keiko Matsumoto to sabotage the vessel’s systems and prevent it from launching a final, catastrophic attack against the Compact fleet. Her final transmission confirmed her intent to stay behind. Moments later, the Matsumoto exploded.

Though presumed dead, Suicide was rescued at the last moment by another golem of Germanicus, which retrieved her from the disintegrating ship.

In 442 IE, Suicide resurfaced briefly in Lhasa, Tibet, where she infiltrated and destroyed a hidden resurrection facility operated by Juno. The site had been key to sustaining Jez Salamacis and was believed to house backup imprints of Leitman’s consciousness. Suicide planted demolition charges throughout the subterranean complex and escaped moments before detonation, reducing the entire site to rubble. This act effectively ended Jez’s ability to return and dealt a crippling blow to Leitman’s long-term plans. As they fled Lhasa, she told the fragment of Tol, “I just want to see my children one more time.”

Following that final operation, Suicide vanished. No confirmed sightings followed. Whether she succumbed to her injuries, chose a life of exile, or went underground to ensure her work remained finished, no one—Compact, Foundation, or otherwise—could say for certain.

Among the Children of Amargosa, only a quiet understanding persisted: she had seen them one more time. And then, true to her name, disappeared into legend.

Relationships

Cui Jiao-long:

Suicide’s relationship with her father, Lieutenant Commander Cui Jiao-long, began under tension—he was disappointed by her small size at birth and questioned her strength. A traditionalist and military man, he initially struggled to connect with her but softened when confronted with her quiet resilience and budding talent as an artist. Over time, despite frequent clashes in worldview, he became a quiet but steadfast supporter of the woman she would become.
Akrad Izumi:
Akrad Izumi was Suicide’s first husband and a fellow pilot whose death during the Polygamy Wars left a lasting scar. Though she had other lovers afterward, none held the same space in her heart. Their final night together, on the back deck of their Shandug apartment beneath a sky lit by Hecate and the distant planets of Helios, marked the emotional high point of her prewar life. With their daughter due in three months, they shared dreams of settling in the north, where Akrad had been offered a post at Tian Regional Command. Suicide—then still Cui Yun—worried about giving up her flying career, but Akrad promised to make space for it. “If we live together, and one of our parents is around to help with the baby, you can still be a pilot,” he told her. That simple faith in her calling stayed with her forever.

That night was their last together. They made love under the stars, Yun whispering her wish that, when her time came, the sky would scatter her atoms back into the universe. Akrad promised she’d never die. She never told him how much those words meant, or how often she repeated them in the dark years that followed.

She still wears a bullet locket containing his ashes, a tribute to the man who shaped both her flying and her outlook in war. His memory remains one of the two great anchors in her personal life. The other would come decades later, when she passed her old call sign—Little Wing—on to JT Austin.
JT Austin:

Over the course of the series, Suicide’s bond with JT Austin evolves into a fierce and unconventional mother-son relationship. Though their connection begins through war and mentorship, by the time of Suicide Run, JT openly calls her “Mom”—a term loaded with affection, irony, and truth. He uses it to comfort her in a moment of crisis, and while it’s partially in jest, Suicide is visibly moved, reflecting how deeply she’s accepted him as her son by choice, not birth.

Their emotional foundation is laid in quieter moments, notably in 431 IE, when the two are assigned the Goldeneye, a retrofitted Falcon-class assault shuttle. During their first inspection, Suicide teases JT about piloting, Tishla, and call signs—finally bestowing her original nickname from the Polygamy Wars, “Little Wing,” onto him. It is a subtle but defining moment: Suicide, who rarely expresses affection in direct terms, is giving JT more than just a call sign—she is passing down legacy, trust, and familial love. When she calls him “son” at the end of the exchange, JT doesn’t flinch. He smiles. That moment becomes a cornerstone of their relationship.

That bond is tested and reaffirmed when Suicide receives an infant—Naomi Best—at her doorstep and calls on JT without hesitation. His willingness to drop everything and fly to her speaks volumes, as does the ease with which they collaborate to protect the baby. JT even jokes about his potential as a father, and Suicide gently mocks his piloting and parenting skills, but both know their bond is real and unwavering. This foundation allows Suicide to place trust in JT’s judgment and integrity, even when they’re being pulled in different political directions.

The relationship takes an unexpected turn in Checkmate. After rescuing King Edward and escorting the Bonapartan royals to Hanar, Suicide remains unaware of a Cybercommand photo that causes JT to withdraw from her emotionally. Though their working relationship remains intact, they do not speak for nearly a year. Suicide later breaks down in tears when Ellie Nardino asks about the silence, revealing her deep sense of confusion and hurt. Despite the pain, she continues to defend JT and carries on as if the bond still exists—because for her, it does.

Their bond, forged in trauma and hardened by shared battlefields, endures through ideology, silence, and time. At its heart, it remains one of the deepest and most defining relationships in either of their lives.

That bond is rekindled in fire during the assault on Kurz’s encampment on Aphrodite. Suicide, leading the effort to neutralize a biohazard threat, is wounded in the battle. As Mitsuko places a beacon on her and charges after Kurz, it falls to JT and Davra to retrieve her from the jungle. They find her bleeding, barely conscious—but lucid enough to croak out sarcasm and concern for Mitsuko. JT calls her “Mom” again, a balm to both their wounds, then adds, “Next time I give you the cold shoulder, just come up to the cabin and yell at me.” Suicide, wheezing and weak, manages a smirk: “You’re a rotten son. And I’ve never been happier to see you.” It’s not dramatic. It’s not loud. But it’s everything.

Later, aboard the Marineris, the silence between them dissolves without fanfare. In Recovery, Davra finds them locked in a quiet embrace—JT sobbing, Suicide clinging to him without a word. There is no apology. No explanation. Just the two of them, finally together again, healing in a way no surgery or nanites could manage. For all the war, pain, and silence between them, this is what remains: a son who came back, and a mother who never stopped waiting.

JT joins the final assault on Mt. Buxanshal, where the remaining Radical Cubists have retreated. Though his injury occurs off-scene, he is shot during the operation and temporarily sidelined. Despite the wound, he recovers in time to attend Mitsuko’s wedding, walking with a slight limp—but refusing to miss it. His quiet presence at the ceremony is both a personal gesture and a reaffirmation of the bonds that carried him through the campaign.

In 435 IE, Suicide and JT operate alongside Eric Yuwono during the Hosh mission—another tightly coordinated effort that reaffirms their bond, now more instinctive than spoken.

By 436 IE, in Suicide Gambit, Suicide calls JT not because they’ve grown apart, but because he remains her first and only choice when Tishla crashes to the surface of Amargosa. The urgency of the moment—and the stakes—pull them back into one another’s orbit as if no time has passed.

She is alarmed when she realizes JT and Tishla have resumed their relationship, particularly as Tishla intends to indenture herself to the Sovereign. Her fear is both maternal and political—concerned for JT’s emotional health and Tishla’s agency. But Tishla calmly reminds her that this is her choice, just as it was when she once offered herself for JT’s sake before the Liberation. The conversation stings, but it grounds Suicide’s respect for both of them.

The moment of highest tension comes when JT unexpectedly counter-challenges Laral Belcas during a Realm ritual. Though stunned, Suicide seconds him without hesitation. She watches as he kills Belcas and wins Tishla’s indenture, but nearly dies in the process. She stays with him through the critical hours after surgery and later scolds a grief-stricken Tishla, who blames herself and attempts suicide. Suicide intervenes—angrily, tearfully—forcing Tishla to confront that JT chose her with full knowledge of the risks.

Following his recovery, Suicide accompanies JT back to Armaneya and then Hanar. When they’re shot down and captured by insurgents, she fights beside him during the operation to restore Hanar’s rightful government, coordinating with Compact and Republic forces.

As JT begins to overexert himself, Suicide works closely with Tishla and Mitsuko to pace his involvement—often using blunt words and black coffee to pull him back from collapse. She remains at his side through diplomatic meetings and final negotiations.

Before the Sovereign, with the Realm, Hanar, Thule, the Republic, and Bonaparte entering into formal alliance, the final act of political restoration requires that JT marry Tishla under Realm law. Suicide agrees—without hesitation—to serve as his “best woman” in the Marilynist ceremony, with Ellie standing for Tishla. As she watches the ceremony unfold, Suicide reflects on her own weddings: her Shinto union with Akrad Izumi, and her Cubist marriage to Priya on Aphrodite. The moment is bittersweet, beautiful, and complete.

Through it all—conflict, injury, political upheaval, and quiet joys—Suicide remains the one constant in JT Austin’s life. Not by birth. Not by duty. But by bond, fire-forged and enduring. He is her son. She is his mother. And nothing—war, ideology, or time—has ever changed that.

In Breaking Liberty, Suicide’s relationship with JT Austin remains steady but understated. She is not central to his arc in this story, but her presence looms in the background, especially through Ellie Nardino’s observation: “He’s the only one she calls Son.” That quiet acknowledgment speaks volumes. Though she delegates the mission to Ellie and Tishla, her rapid response to the Liberty distress call—and the fury with which she joins the rescue—reinforces that JT remains her chosen family. Her protectiveness never wanes, even when she works from the periphery. The emotional foundation between them remains intact, visible not in dramatic moments but in who she shows up for without hesitation.

In Jump, Suicide and JT operate once again as trusted field partners, joining forces with Tishla and Ellie for the mission to free Shrian and secure her quantum entanglement device. Suicide continues to serve as JT’s most brutally honest ally, often grounding him with sarcasm and blunt observations—especially after he’s poisoned during the reaper game.

Though their dynamic is built on mutual respect and battlefield history, Jump shows their evolving familial bond. Suicide increasingly takes on a protective, older-sister role toward JT, unconcerned with decorum and more focused on results. Her presence on this mission—and at Duffy and Shrian’s later wedding—reinforces her place not just in JT’s inner circle, but in the found family he shares with Tishla and Ellie.
Connor Duffy:

Among the Children of Amargosa, Conner Duffy is the one Suicide turns to when she needs something to blow up—or not blow up, depending on the mission. She respects his deep technical skill, assigning him to critical sabotage and demolition roles throughout the resistance and later during Navy-aligned operations. Whether it’s rigging spider drones with grenades or disabling a fission warhead without triggering it, Duffy is her go-to operator when precision chaos is required.

Their relationship is practical but affectionate, defined by a shared love of deadpan sarcasm and battlefield pragmatism. Suicide sees through Duffy’s self-deprecating humor and knows exactly how much responsibility he quietly carries. She rarely coddles or praises him—she doesn’t need to. Her trust is the reward, and Duffy knows it. In turn, he’s fiercely loyal to her, often volunteering for the dirtiest jobs simply because she asked.

In missions like the Aphrodite operation chronicled in Royal Orders, Duffy is the calm under pressure, even while the world burns around him. Suicide doesn’t micromanage him—she simply tells him what needs doing and lets him work, a level of confidence she offers to few.

On Hosh, while assisting Eric Yuwono, Suicide calls on Duffy to replace Boolay—absent on a personal matter—demonstrating the depth of her trust in his competence, even while he’s on active Navy duty. She brings him into the Hosh mission as a field engineer and backup operator without hesitation, relying on his ability to improvise under pressure. When JT and Duffy are arrested, her swift and decisive response to extract them underscores not just tactical necessity but a refusal to leave her people behind.

In Jump, Suicide serves as both backup and agent of chaos in Connor Duffy’s high-stakes mission to free Shrian from Laral Raas. Posing as a Dasarius pilot eager to blow a windfall at the reaper table, she joins the rigged game with full awareness of its danger—buying time and sowing confusion long enough for Duffy to gain the upper hand. Her unflinching confidence in Duffy’s instincts is subtle but unmistakable, and she supports him through JT’s poisoning and the tense extraction of the quantum entanglement device.

By the time of Duffy and Shrian’s wedding aboard the Endeavour, Suicide’s presence underscores her quiet investment in Duffy’s growth—from reluctant resistance fighter to someone shaping the Compact’s future. Though rarely sentimental, her attendance signals hard-earned respect and a sense of shared history.
Relationship with Ellie Nardino:

From their earliest days in the Amargosa resistance, Suicide recognizes Ellie as more than just a teenaged fighter—she sees a future leader: calm under pressure, wickedly intelligent, and deeply mission-driven. Their connection evolves into something quietly powerful, built on shared trauma and mutual understanding rather than hierarchy.

When Ellie resurfaces months after her apparent death, now the mysterious Chapaan and leader of the Northern Resistance, Suicide is stunned. Their reunion near Riverside reveals how much Ellie has changed—paler, leaner, more hardened, and no longer a girl. Ellie confesses to executing a would-be killer under lycanth law and weeps as she admits to taking lives, shouldering guilt far beyond her years. Suicide pulls her into an embrace, calling her ‘young one,’ and begins teaching her how to cope—with meditation, focus… and tequila. The moment reaffirms their bond not only as comrades but as survivors. Suicide sees Ellie not as a broken girl, but as someone she now must guide.

In Winter Games, their bond deepens during Suicide’s painful estrangement from JT Austin. When Ellie finds her silently crying over the loss of that relationship, she doesn’t press or demand answers—she simply lets Suicide cry it out, offering quiet, unconditional support. It’s a rare moment of vulnerability that underscores how essential Ellie has become in Suicide’s inner life—less a protégé now and more a kindred spirit.

That emotional foundation comes full circle when Suicide disappears during political turmoil on Aphrodite. JT, still reeling from their unresolved fallout, takes it upon himself to wait for her return—sleeping in his barrow parked just outside her hut, assuming she’ll find him there when she comes home. It’s Ellie who finds him instead. Watching him rise and begin calmly listing the weapons he’ll need to bring her home, Ellie says, “That’s the man I fell in love with,” making it clear that reconciliation with Suicide will be a condition of any future they might share.

Theirs is a rare, complex relationship—neither mother-daughter nor sisters-in-arms, but something enduring and fierce, forged by fire and sustained by love in all its unspoken forms.

In Breaking Liberty, Suicide and Ellie Nardino operate with a wordless trust forged in the fires of the Amargosa occupation. Suicide entrusts Ellie with one of the most sensitive missions of the post-Compact era: smuggling Baker ibn-Aziz into Foundation-controlled space without alerting Leitman’s regime. That trust is unspoken but absolute—Suicide never questions Ellie’s competence, even when the mission goes sideways. Ellie, in turn, doesn’t hesitate to follow Suicide’s plan, despite the personal risk. Their bond is marked by mutual confidence and a shared understanding of what needs to be done. While they don’t share many scenes directly, Suicide’s belief in Ellie is clear through her choices, and Ellie’s loyalty surfaces in the way she carries the mission—and defends both Tishla and Baker—as if Suicide were watching the whole time.

Although not central to the events of Jump, the bond between Suicide and Ellie Nardino continues to deepen. Alongside JT, Suicide is actively mentoring Ellie as a pilot, providing her with copilot hours aboard the Goldeneye during the mission to Armaneya. Their dynamic reflects a blend of tough-love instruction and mutual trust, with Suicide offering Ellie both practical flight experience and the kind of unapologetic honesty few others can provide.

While the mission centers on Duffy and Shrian, Ellie’s growing competence under Suicide’s guidance marks her transition from resistance fighter to pilot in her own right. By then, their relationship has evolved into something beyond category—part mentor and mentee, part grief partners, part stubbornly loyal family. It began in fire, was reforged in guilt, and now survives in air and steel.
Eric Yuwono:

Suicide’s relationship with Eric Yuwono is grounded in mutual professionalism and an instinctive understanding of what it means to be forged by war. Unlike her emotionally charged bonds with JT or Ellie, her connection with Eric is lean, deliberate, and shaped by early trust under pressure.

That trust began during the Amargosa occupation, when Suicide chose Eric—then a teenage resistance fighter—to infiltrate Lucius Kray’s growing militia as a mole. While others questioned the plan, Suicide recognized Eric’s quiet intelligence, his gift for observation, and his ability to suppress panic with dark humor. Before he boarded the Falcon that would return her team to the Ban Ki-moon, she gave him a simple directive: act angry, act betrayed, act like your father’s imprisonment broke your trust in the resistance. Then she told him the truth—he was their mole. And if he was terrified, good. So was she. It was the first time she laughed in his presence—and the last before sending him into enemy lines.

From that moment on, Suicide didn’t waste time testing Eric. Once he proved himself, she treated him as a trusted equal, assigning him missions others might flinch at. Their interactions often carry a shared sardonic edge, laced with gallows humor and strategic shorthand. In Another Way to Die, she doesn’t hover over Eric’s deep-cover operation on Hosh—she empowers it, providing the Goldeneye and a full support team. When things unravel, she intervenes not with lectures but with action—stun grenades, jailbreaks, and gunship insertions. For all her bluntness, it’s clear: she respects Eric not just as an agent, but as one of the few people who gets her. They don’t need sentiment. The trust speaks for itself.

Jump marks a turning point in Suicide’s relationship with Eric Yuwono. Although she has long served as a dominant tactical voice in field operations, Armaneya is the first time she formally defers to Eric’s authority. Now operating as a civilian contractor for Cybercommand, Suicide acknowledges Eric’s lead role in the mission to extract Shrian and her quantum entanglement device.

Despite the shift in hierarchy, their relationship remains collaborative and pragmatic. Suicide treats Eric with professional respect, even as she retains her trademark irreverence. Their dynamic reflects a maturing trust: Eric has grown into a leadership role, and Suicide, recognizing this, supports the mission without challenging his command—a notable evolution for both of them.

From frightened teenager on a docked boat to commanding officer on a Cybercommand mission, Eric Yuwono is one of the few people Suicide never stops trusting—even when she can’t say it aloud.
Davra Andraste:

Suicide recognized early on that Davra Andraste was the sharpest mind among the Children of Amargosa—rational, focused, and quietly lethal. In Second Wave, she stood by Davra after she killed a would-be rapist to protect Tishla, insisting the act be seen for what it was: necessary. By Suicide Run, Davra had become a junior lieutenant aboard the Anna Khirovsky, and didn’t hesitate to aid Suicide when she found her covertly aboard the ship—no questions, just loyalty.

That loyalty runs both ways. Their bond evolves into one of deep mutual respect, each seeing in the other a reflection of what it means to survive with purpose. In Royal Orders, Davra joins the mission to extract Suicide from Kurz’s Cubist stronghold and is there, rifle in hand, when JT calls her “Mom” on the battlefield. Later, during Suicide’s recovery, Davra watches over both her and JT, quietly shepherding their reunion. To Suicide, Davra isn’t just an ally—she is a rightful heir to the kind of leadership no uniform could teach. And to Davra, Suicide is something more than a mentor: a living example of who she might become if she dared to feel.

During the climax of Breaking Liberty, Suicide joins the battle to repel a mech incursion aboard the Hadrian, returning from EVA just in time to help clear one of the boarding points. Notably, despite her seniority and reputation, Suicide immediately defers to Davra Andraste, the ship’s first officer. The gesture is subtle but significant—it reflects not only Suicide’s respect for Davra’s command authority but also her recognition of how far Davra has come since her days as the youngest of the Children of Amargosa. Their dynamic is professional, efficient, and rooted in mutual trust. Suicide knows when to take command and when to stand down—and in this moment, she reinforces Davra’s leadership by supporting rather than overshadowing her.

In 439, Suicide attends Davra’s commissioning ceremony aboard the Endeavour, greeting the newly minted captain with her trademark dry wit: “Now you get to deal with the insubordinate officers.” When both Tishla and Davra push for JT Austin to serve as first officer, it is Suicide who ultimately persuades him—not with orders, but a sword duel and the weight of earned trust. Later, when they witness Tol Germanicus’s execution, Davra quietly offers support as Suicide breaks down in tears—a rare, vulnerable moment that speaks to the depth of their friendship. Through it all, Suicide sees in Davra not just a rising star, but someone worthy of command, pain, and loyalty alike.
Lucius Kray – Suicide first met Lucius Kray during the Polygamy Wars, when he was a timid first lieutenant assigned to an extraction she flew. At the time, he seemed rattled but eager to prove himself—qualities she initially dismissed. However, as the war progressed, she watched his bloodlust grow, his thrill in violence unsettling even for a hardened pilot like her. By war’s end, Kray’s transformation into a predator made her nervous enough to retire, long before he reemerged as a self-styled warlord on Amargosa.
Tyler Wat:

Suicide first crossed paths with Tyler Wat at the end of the Polygamy Wars, when he surrendered the rebel leader’s unwilling sister wives rather than let them be used as bargaining chips. His act of conscience spared him, Riley, and Boone a Section 11 execution—earning instead hard labor and, eventually, Suicide’s guarded respect. By the time of the Amargosa occupation, Wat had matured into a pragmatic if jaded operator, someone Suicide trusted enough to guide Eric Yuwono in infiltrating Kray’s militia.
Tishla:
While Suicide is wary of the Gelt First Citizen of Hanar at first, she gradually comes to respect Tishla’s resolve and leadership. Their relationship is complicated—Suicide sees the potential for betrayal but also recognizes Tishla’s sincere desire to forge peace between humans and Gelt.

Their bond begins not in diplomacy but in captivity. In a pivotal moment at Lake Anaronda, Suicide demands time alone with the young Gelt prisoner and learns the full weight of Tishla’s guilt. Tishla confesses her complicity—not in direct orders, but in failing to see the deception that led to the invasion. She offers her life to JT Austin, seeing herself as the reason for his widowhood, and promises Suicide that if spared, she will protect him with her own life. The two women discover a shared grief: both have lost children, both have seen war twist their identities, and both carry burdens they never asked for. Suicide shares her real name—Cui Yun—for one of the few times in the series, a gesture that begins to shift their dynamic from captor and prisoner to wary confidants.

Suicide keeps JT at arm’s length from Tishla at first, suspecting a budding attraction, but eventually relents. She even intervenes when others question Tishla’s loyalty, recognizing the necessity of building bridges in the aftermath of war. In Winter Games, Tishla quietly reinforces the emotional triangle formed by herself, Suicide, and Ellie. After offering JT the chance to make the first move in rekindling their own relationship—an invitation he hesitates to accept—she instead nudges him toward Ellie, recognizing that both he and Ellie might find healing together. Even while setting aside her own desires, Tishla joins the chorus of women urging JT to reconcile with Suicide, gently telling him that broken family needs mending before new bonds can take hold. Her support is calm but insistent, driven not by jealousy, but by a fierce desire to see the people she loves whole again.

In 436 IE, Suicide accompanies Tishla to the Gelt Throneworld without hesitation, fully aware of the political and personal risks. Their journey reopens old tensions, particularly when Suicide learns that Tishla and JT have rekindled their physical relationship despite Tishla’s impending indenture to the Sovereign. The confrontation is sharp, but when Tishla calmly explains that this was her choice—and reminds Suicide she once offered herself for JT in a far more dangerous moment—Suicide backs down. Later, when JT is nearly killed in single combat, Suicide does not console Tishla but scolds her for trying to take her own life, telling her bluntly that self-pity helps no one. When Tishla tries to call her “Mom” in a moment of grief, Suicide replies without cruelty: “You don’t get to call me that. You have to earn it.”

Yet by the time they return to Hanar, Suicide is Tishla’s fiercest protector—defending her political choices and helping rein in JT’s tendency to overextend himself during recovery. The turning point comes when it becomes clear JT will have to marry Tishla to legitimize the new interstellar alliance. Suicide offers to have her own mother merge her Shinto and Cubist wedding dresses into one that will suit Tishla. “How’s that for approval?” she asks, then pauses before adding, “Daughter?” The gesture seals a new kind of bond between them—respect, forgiveness, and reluctant affection. On the morning Douglas Best is sworn in as First Citizen of Hanar, Suicide is the one who sees them off as JT and Tishla are gifted a replacement Goldeneye. She says nothing about the future—only that she’ll be watching, as mothers do.

In Breaking Liberty, Suicide entrusts Tishla with escorting Baker ibn-Aziz to the new Thulian Clinic on Aphrodite—a decision that marks a turning point in their relationship. It’s both an acknowledgment of Tishla’s evolution from political figure to working geneticist and an act of profound trust. Suicide knows the mission is dangerous, and though Ellie is formally tasked with protecting both Tishla and Baker, she makes the assignment knowing full well that Tishla is capable of defending herself. While Suicide doesn’t reappear in the narrative after the initial deployment, it’s clear from later references that she is quietly pleased when Tishla and Ellie successfully persuade JT to accept Thulian treatment for a wound that could have killed him—perhaps more easily than the injuries he survived in the arena. In trusting Tishla with the mission and ultimately with JT’s care, Suicide affirms that their long, sometimes fraught alliance has evolved into genuine mutual respect.

In Jump, Suicide and Tishla continue to operate as part of JT Austin’s close-knit team, working together on the mission to extract Shrian and her quantum entanglement device from Laral Raas. While their roles differ—Suicide handling tactical misdirection and intimidation, Tishla leveraging political presence and moral authority—their cooperation is seamless.

The two women share a quiet mutual respect. Suicide, often skeptical of authority and unimpressed by status, treats Tishla less as a former head of state and more as an equal in the field. Tishla, in turn, trusts Suicide’s instincts and accepts her as a central figure in JT’s life and in the unconventional family they’ve built. Though they rarely show overt affection, Jump highlights the deep trust and tactical harmony that has developed between them since the days of the resistance—beginning in a snowy lakeside moment where guilt, grief, and a willingness to die gave way to something far more durable: allegiance.
Mitsuko Yamato:
Mitsuko Yamato became both a protégé and surrogate younger sister to Suicide in the years following the Liberation of Amargosa—but their bond began earlier, forged in a sparring ring on Hanar during the fragile reconstruction period after the Gelt withdrawal. It was there, after a grueling match and a brief mutual disarmament, that Suicide first saw through the polished Special Forces training to the self-denying, determined young woman underneath. She called Mitsuko “relentless,” then—more importantly—“family.”

Their connection grew from shared battlefield experience and an uncommon emotional honesty. Suicide challenged Mitsuko in ways few others dared—grilling her about JT Austin, her grief over Giddeus Modesto, and the quiet fears Mitsuko tried to bury under duty and rank. She pushed because she saw herself in Mitsuko: driven, emotionally restrained, loyal to a fault. And in return, Mitsuko offered something Suicide rarely allowed herself to accept—trust without expectation.

It was Suicide who told her, with a crooked grin, that she wasn’t just a soldier or a princess, but the “older sister” to the Children of Amargosa. Watching Mitsuko’s face light up at those words gave Suicide more satisfaction than she cared to admit. From that moment on, she treated Mitsuko not just as an operator, but as part of the family she had built in wartime—equal parts fierce protector, reluctant heir, and steadying influence.

Though Mitsuko often projected quiet command, Suicide encouraged her to remain irreverent and real—especially when palace life or war demanded poise. Their bond, built on mutual trust and blunt dialogue, only deepened when the two worked side by side to thwart an assassination attempt on King Edward. Together, they pursued Gerard Kurz and dismantled the worst fringes of radical Cubist ideology. Afterward, Suicide stayed close during Mitsuko’s recovery, reinforcing that their relationship had moved far beyond command structures or shared missions. They were chosen family now.

In Suicide Gambit, the two operate in near-perfect sync—often coordinating without a word, relying on instinct, trust, and a deep mutual understanding. Suicide, who rarely ceded authority, entrusted Mitsuko with operational decisions she normally reserved for JT. Their personalities remained distinct—Mitsuko the tactical saboteur shaped by dynastic expectation, Suicide the battle-worn idealist—but they worked as one. In quiet moments between missions, they traded dry commentary and war-hardened glances, both fiercely protective of the next generation they helped raise.

Where others tried to mold Mitsuko into a figurehead, Suicide gave her permission to be whole: to grieve, to swear, to lead, to love. And when the time came to begin stepping back, Suicide made a quiet decision—if her legacy was going to survive, it would be because Mitsuko Yamato carried it forward, not as a copy, but as something even stronger.
Eileen Burke: Suicide and Vice Admiral Eileen Burke two hardened women who have clawed their way through the ranks by doing what needed to be done, regardless of protocol. Their relationship begins decades before the Amargosa invasion, when Burke serves as Suicide’s commanding officer aboard the Hancock. Despite Suicide’s abrasive style and refusal to fully assimilate into Navy culture, Burke sees her potential early on and quietly champions her advancement. When Suicide leaves military service for civilian contracts, Burke doesn’t stand in her way—she promotes her on the spot, telling her, in so many words, that rank follows merit, not obedience.
That same loyalty runs both ways. Even during Suicide’s estrangement from JT Austin, she goes to Burke to advocate for him, ensuring that his insubordination during the Hanar mission is cleared quietly. She never tells JT directly, but Burke does—revealing it just before JT resigns his commission. Burke’s decision to promote JT on his way out is no coincidence: it mirrors the gesture she once made to Suicide, and it wouldn’t have happened without Suicide’s intervention.

Though they often operate in different theaters, Suicide and Burke remain professionally and personally aligned. They trust each other’s judgment, share intelligence through unofficial channels, and—when necessary—protect people the system would rather discard. Their relationship is marked by mutual candor and loyalty without sentiment, a quiet alliance that spans decades and outlasts any formal command.

Admiral Eileen Burke’s response to Suicide’s presence aboard the Hadrian during the mech assault is pure understatement. While Captain Chen grumbles about having a rogue element on his ship, Burke—now a full four-star admiral—shrugs it off as “just Tuesday.” That reaction speaks volumes about their long history. Burke once commanded Suicide during the Polygamy Wars and has come to rely on her uncanny ability to turn chaos into opportunity. She doesn’t expect protocol from Suicide—she expects results. Their bond is built on trust forged in fire, and Burke knows better than anyone that if Suicide is on board, the mission will get done. Her calm assurance contrasts sharply with Chen’s unease, highlighting the weight of years behind her quiet authority.
Quentin Austin:
Suicide met Quentin “Reaper” Austin on the battlefield shortly after a crash cost him his original left hand, and their bond was forged in blood and adrenaline from the start. As her flight commander, he never tried to tame her recklessness—only channeled it into effectiveness. They shared a grim wit and a deep mutual respect, both thriving in chaos. Reaper’s influence shaped her combat instincts—and years later, she would quietly take on a maternal role for his son, JT.

Though Suicide often presented herself as emotionally detached, her affection for Reaper ran deeper than she ever admitted aloud. In 429 IE, shortly before the Gelt Incursion of 429 IE, he made a quiet visit to her lakeside cabin to ask a personal favor: to watch over his estranged son. Suicide agreed immediately—not out of obligation, but out of enduring loyalty to the man she trusted above nearly all others. Their interaction was laced with humor, warmth, and a lingering tension that suggested unspoken feelings, particularly on Suicide’s part.

She teased him about rank, called him “Quentin” instead of “sir,” and offered him tea as an excuse to prolong their time together. His trust in her—handing off JT’s safety without hesitation—profoundly affected her. That moment not only catalyzed her role in the events to come, but also reopened emotional territory she had long abandoned.

Their bond remained one of camaraderie and fierce trust, but the quiet tenderness of that meeting underscored what neither of them voiced: in another life, things might have been different.
Tol Germanicus:
Suicide first encountered Tol Germanicus following the Polygamy Wars, at a time when she viewed him simply as a brilliant if eccentric advisor—an aloof germophobe with too many secrets and a meticulous mind. She accepted a role at Dasarius Interstellar at his invitation, initially seeing it as a way to stay useful between missions. What she didn’t realize at the time was that Tol was not entirely human anymore: he was Steven Turing, a digitized consciousness living in exile after nearly ending humanity during the AI War.

Their connection grew from mutual respect, with Suicide’s brutal honesty and grounded instincts providing a counterweight to Tol’s calculating intellect. He came to rely on her not only as a trusted operative, but—on rare occasions—as a source of emotional clarity. When she eventually discovered his true nature, her reaction was not fear or betrayal, but understanding. It only deepened their bond, transforming what had been a strategic partnership into a unique kind of friendship.

That bond was put to the test in 425 IE, when Suicide walked into Dasarius HQ on Tian and handed Tol her resignation. Reeling from the death of her second spouse and unwilling to undergo rejuvenation, she told him she intended to grow old and fade out. Over tequila and the weight of too much grief, she explained that she had nothing left to anchor her in the world he had helped shape. Tol did not try to stop her. Instead, he quietly offered her a rejuve slot and reminded her: she would always have a place with Dasarius. His rare gentleness in that moment left a mark. He was, in that instant, not a subhuman ghost or corporate architect—but a man who simply let her go with grace.

Years later, long after Tol’s final plan was set in motion, Suicide encountered two of his autonomous subminds—fragments of his original consciousness left behind after his execution:

The first, tasked with smuggling Tessa Dasarius and Shaneese off Earth, made contact with Suicide on Aphrodite and detonated itself to destroy Marcus Leitman, at least temporarily. Though the AI fragment was gone in seconds, Suicide understood its intent immediately. It died to protect the heir and the mother, just as Tol would have.

The second, embedded in Earth’s underground, coordinated with the resistance during the rise of the Leitman regime. Suicide worked directly with this fragment after her apparent death in 440, leveraging its surveillance and supply networks to move key personnel out of Earth-controlled space. Unlike most operatives, she never questioned the submind’s identity. “You’re Tol,” she once told it. “The part that stuck around when the rest of you got deleted.”

In 439 IE, Suicide was one of the few trusted to witness Tol’s execution on Thule. As his final, unified consciousness was deleted, she did not speak—she only wept. The tears were not just for Tol, but for what he represented: a man who could shape the universe with logic, and yet still understood what it meant to let someone walk away when they had nothing left to give.

Tol Germanicus was the architect of a world Suicide had long grown weary of. And yet, to the end, she respected him—not because he was wise or immortal, but because when she needed it most, he was simply kind.
Douglas Best: While not close, Suicide developed a quiet respect for Douglas Best, impressed by his moral spine and stubborn refusal to be anyone’s puppet—even during the Compact’s lowest moments. Their interactions were rare but meaningful, especially during the crisis in Suicide Run, when she found herself protecting his child and witnessing firsthand what his family’s integrity cost them. In her view, Best wasn’t a warrior—but he stood his ground like one when it mattered most.
Jayne Best: Suicide’s relationship with Jayne Best began at a distance—an administrator she respected more than expected—but deepened the moment Jayne entrusted her infant daughter to Suicide’s care during a planetary crisis. That single act forged a fierce loyalty. Though their direct interactions remained limited, Suicide came to see Jayne as a rare blend of compassion and resolve—someone who, like her, made hard choices quietly and without fanfare.
Frederick Ansel:
Suicide first met Frederick Ansel during her early days on Aphrodite, where she was drawn to the Cubist philosophy he had helped articulate. What began as curiosity quickly deepened into kinship: Ansel’s view of the universe—as a living puzzle to be honored, not conquered—mirrored ideas Suicide had long held but never named. In his quiet, self-effacing way, Ansel gave language to the beliefs she had forged through war, grief, and survival.

Their connection became more than philosophical. Ansel served as a spiritual mentor and emotional anchor during Suicide’s time with Priya, eventually officiating their Cubist wedding at Mt. Buxanshal. While he was never romantically involved with either woman, his presence in their lives was constant—a gentle, grounding force in a world otherwise defined by chaos and trauma. After Priya’s death in a café bombing, Ansel remained a silent source of support. He didn’t preach at her grief. He simply made space for it.

In the years that followed, Suicide made occasional pilgrimages to Cubist enclaves—especially on Amargosa—where she remained deeply rooted in the philosophy without ever becoming a formal preacher. For Ansel, Suicide represented the best embodiment of his teachings: action grounded in awareness, compassion forged in pain, and discipline without dogma.
Gerard Kurz began as Suicide’s supervisor during her assignment with Dasarius Interstellar on Aphrodite, overseeing infrastructure and community development as part of the company’s effort to pacify the war-torn planet. Initially, Suicide saw him as a competent, if rigid, administrator—a man more comfortable with schedules and field reports than with moral ambiguity. When Kurz took an interest in Cubism—then a quiet, contemplative philosophy—Suicide cautiously encouraged it. Like Frederick Ansel, she believed Cubism might offer common ground between the bitterly divided Penqu and Kolkat populations.

But where Ansel saw meditation, reflection, and personal alignment with a living universe, Kurz saw opportunity. His interest in Cubism became fixation, then weaponization. Declaring that Ansel lacked the will to lead, Kurz reshaped the movement into a militant ideology. He preached order through submission, demanding loyalty to a Cubist “truth” that bore little resemblance to Ansel’s teachings. Suicide—who had helped introduce him to those ideas—watched in horror as he twisted Cubist principles into justification for purges, indoctrination, and terrorism. Her reports to Dasarius went unheeded. When a café bombing orchestrated by Kurz’s followers killed her partner Priya, Suicide’s disillusionment became irreversible.

Their final confrontation came during Royal Orders, when Suicide—captured and wounded—was imprisoned inside Kurz’s jungle compound. From within his indoctrinated ranks, she witnessed the extent of his transformation into a self-anointed prophet and warlord. She escaped with help from JT Austin and Mitsuko Yamato, who led the counterstrike. During the assault, it was Mitsuko who found Kurz and killed him—quick, efficient, and without ceremony. Suicide never spoke of it in detail, but later admitted that Mitsuko had “done what I couldn’t.” Kurz’s death did not bring peace, but it closed a chapter of personal guilt and philosophical betrayal. What remained was rubble—of a movement, a world, and a man who once might have meant well. Suicide would spend the rest of her life helping others pick through the wreckage and find something worth keeping.
Akon:Suicide first met Akon, the young Sovereign of the Realm, on the Gelt Throneworld during the events of Suicide Gambit, where she escorted Tishla to offer herself in indenture in exchange for help reclaiming Hanar. Though she expected posturing and indifference from the Sovereign, Akon surprised her. Barely older than JT, he was calm, sharp, and possessed a quiet intensity. He later told her she reminded him of Sansar Aryanna—the previous Sovereign and a mother figure to him—earning Suicide’s guarded respect.
When JT unexpectedly counter-challenged Laral Belcas in ritual combat, it was Akon who handed Suicide his own sword, entrusting her with JT’s survival without a word. That moment sealed their unspoken understanding. Later, in private negotiation, Akon listened to Suicide’s advice on how to handle a human with Realm holdings—choosing her perspective over any rigid legal precedent. She didn’t flatter him for it. But she did approve.

Their connection deepened on Hanar. Suicide and JT arrived first to confront the coup, but Akon followed shortly after—his presence unannounced, catching even Admiral Burke off guard. Once in Parliament, he invoked Sovereign authority to halt the proceedings and had the coup leader executed mid-sentence. Suicide didn’t flinch. She merely noted that he had waited until Tishla was ready, and then acted without hesitation.

At JT and Tishla’s Marilynist wedding, Akon joined the nude ceremony without ceremony or title, saying simply, “For the duration of this ceremony, I am just Akon.” That earned him her highest unspoken praise.
Jez Salamacis:
Suicide first encountered Jez Salamacis in 427 IE during a sunrise meditation at her secluded lakeside retreat on Amargosa. Jez arrived uninvited, elegantly dressed and disturbingly composed, pitching an unnamed organization’s fight against an “existential threat to humanity.” For Suicide—still grieving the losses of both a husband and wife to ideological extremism—the offer was not only unwelcome, it was insulting. She knocked Jez to the ground and issued a warning: leave and never return, or disappear without a trace.

From that moment, Suicide understood Jez for what she was: a zealot who used martyrdom as a social lubricant and resurrection as branding. While others debated Jez’s strategic value or psychological instability, Suicide dismissed her entirely—as a threat, a manipulator, and a woman addicted to her own destruction.

Their next direct confrontation occurred during Suicide Run, deep in the Khirovsky Command & Control complex on Earth. By then, Jez had elevated her delusions to near-religious fervor. She taunted Suicide with prophecy and destiny, daring her to understand what “ascension” truly meant. The confrontation ended not in gunfire, but with Jez deliberately disintegrating herself, triggering one of her many resurrection protocols. Suicide didn’t stop her—she simply watched with contempt, recognizing the act not as power, but pathological vanity.

But the real conclusion came later.

At the Dasarius Estate, Suicide encountered another active iteration of Jez—and killed her. Not with ceremony. Not with theatrics. Just a clean, deliberate termination. Then, in a final blow two years later, she located and destroyed the resurrection farm responsible for Jez’s rebirth cycles. No more engineered martyrdom. No more endless comebacks. She ended the cycle personally.

To Jez, resurrection was purpose.
To Suicide, it was a refusal to accept the cost of living.

Where Jez Salamacis sought transcendence through death and rebirth, Suicide chose to live in pain, grief, and mortality—and made damn sure her enemies didn’t get to escape it.

Personality and Leadership Style

Strategic and unsentimental, except when it comes to the safety of her team
Quiet but commanding, using presence rather than volume to lead
Emotionally closed, shaped by the loss of both a husband and wife
Efficient and unflinching, willing to discipline even sympathetic figures like Davra or JT
Often acts with foresight and caution, contrasting with the more idealistic impulses of her younger fighters

Legacy

Suicide is the steel thread that binds the youth-led resistance on Amargosa. Though she rarely shows emotion, her quiet care for those under her command—especially JT—defines her legacy just as much as her battlefield decisions. She represents resilience forged in personal loss and discipline shaped by war.

Appearances: The Children of Amargosa, Second Wave, Storming Amargosa, “Lizzy“, Suicide Run, Checkmate, Winter Games, Royal Orders, Another Way to Die, Suicide Gambit, Breaking Liberty, Jump, [yadawiki link=”Davra’s Endeavour” show=””], Suicide Solution

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